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Iljano lepelblad Jun 2020
I wish there was a time to escape to a better place,
and how to engrave your name in stone in a heart that spreads stones like along the river bed, cause in all of this pain i can seek, a stream a place to few your name like a memory forever and so i speak with a full heart i'd love to be there again, loved to love again, love to feel that again, but for now i just wish....
love is priceless if you have it keep it safe
Iljano lepelblad Jun 2020
Self conflicted and disturbed, all thoughts pass through my mind with vengeance and misery, trying to control this hate growing inside and killing all part of emotion like a scythe through the grass and a flame eating away the dryness of this life, never knowing the pain and guild that was inflicted to ones mind and soul.
I am a hate breather, negative eater and just all parts of chaos that make all the more sense in a world which only knows conflict and has no brain, pondering why things are as they are, are not questions to be asked in this world, do so and be branded to unknown one, for now and always... A negative eater and wishful peace of mind is a complexity of the wise and a curse to the unknown one...
controle the anger
Iljano lepelblad May 2020
What was asleep is now awake,
What once would hide in the dark is back yet again, i did not want it awake, i wanted it to stay away but the more i tried, the stronger it got

Now wings burn once more, lights dim down and it all starts again,
Darkness awakens when that part of your heart gets hurt or lost in a war of feelings and pain, the suffering starts again.

I wanted it different, i wanted to be whole but seems you where the key to open that door yet again in my life, i could hate you, i could mentaly rip you from my mind,
But darkness has awaken again
When anger takes over
Iljano lepelblad Mar 2020
Knowing and feeling that it will all end, is maby far fetched, but maby there is some truth to it,
All i can say is,
When words end its clear as day and as silent as night.
When words no longer matter, when words have no more mening behind it ,no more emotion, no more weight and no more reason.

It clear as day and silent as night.
That your heart has stopped.
Iljano lepelblad Jan 2020
What starts like a seed, can become a ****.
What starts as a conversation, can become an argument.
What starts as love can become hate...
Just like life starts with being born, it ends in death...

The same as taking thee with sugar, thats how all things start, the first step, becomes your last...

Addict

Will you start now or keep far away, its everywhere, believe it or dont...
Be the judge of your life, be the blood that pumps through you, become the human you know you are...

Be less afraid and start...

Addict to life...
Comming from a safe place and deep mindset
Iljano lepelblad Jan 2019
Anger such a dangerouse thing, one moment of peace can easily slip away from you heart, for just that moment anger comes out.

Ever see that car seat, ever see that door in the hallway, ever see that persons face, you so wanted to hit...
That one moment, that one deccision, that one second, was all it took to make anger your maker, to make your debt to anger even greater.
Shift your mind or shift your actions,
Anger......
Hate anger self reflection
Iljano lepelblad Nov 2018
As i see my past and future colide and sense a sky light, going through my mind, the sense of belonging is just so great... breathing eating sensing as a delight as my air thoughts cover my night...
Happy notes of having a few followers and people who understand the words i place. So again thanks for reading and please leave some comments id like to hear your thoughts and feed my insparation.
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