I don't know how to describe the way I feel.
All of this doesn't even feel real.
I try to take the pain away.
I can't even build up the strength to pray.
I'm afraid God's disappointed in me.
I just want to feel free.
The scars I make help me feel okay.
They help take the pain away.
They make me feel like I've paid my debt.
So I don't have to live with regret.
Sometimes I just wanna disappear.
Someone help me get out of here.

she asks him
do you believe

in magic?

in ghosts?

in angels?

and he thinks
he does

he'd rather talk about
how soft she is
and how lonely
he's been

he doesn't understand
the magnetism
that draws him
toward her

he doesn't understand
the poetry
that happens
in confused conversations

he doesn't understand
walls

or conflict
that advances and withdraws
with no warning

he can't see her blue skies
and doesn't know
that they bring real tears
that fade when
the rain comes

these things almost never
end well

maybe she should have asked
do you believe in me?

I have all these questions to ask her
but she flies away from the fence-line
and over the barns

I hear her calling in the early morning hours
but I get no answers
not to the questions my heart makes

and I feel the hot heavy breath
of the hunters
their foot treads sound ominous
on the forest floor

I have been caught too many times before
I have been folded up in heavy hands
until I couldn't even breathe
and I am reluctant to be lost again

I need that Muse-woman
to come back here
and tell me if I am really ready
to fly.

Shot me when you blinked your eyes
You sealed it with your voice
When u told me your name,Grace
First sight sailed to in intimacy
Truthful words that are hearty tasty
I left after that,still I longed for your sound
That night your voice my memory cuddled it,abound
Under the skin with love there's mercy
Couldn't stop thinking about you made felt
It was opposite of being hurt
It happened day in and night out
The fear of not having you in my life
Drove my faith of needing u in my life
Future thoughts of us,
Freedom,Intimacy,Unity,Support,Care,Loyalty,
Love and Spirituality
Presently I promise everything
Presently we must cherish our nothing
Future we will blossom our something
Divine Providence,
It was God's grace to meet you
And it was God's grace to love you