The other day I was so high
it was amazing.
I could not stop laughing and felt at ease
but as I went to sleep all that was left
was me.
I was lonely.
I was so low

Sweetheart I saw you today.
Again you made my heart so sweet.
Sweetheart why'd you go away.
Sour flavors make me weep.

Although you didn't stay
and Im not sure if you were ever there
but thank you for provoking those feelings
Sure they hurt once you left them
but letting me know how wonderful it feels to feel.
I have to thank you.

Today I reminisced  about you
I miss you?
I miss the feeling?
I don't know.
I need a bandaid
I think my heart is bleeding a bit.

The snow is a beauty that pains me with it's cold
But it's beauty is so beautiful

It's so quiet
It's so quiet that I can hear everything that I feel
There's space for my thoughts
I feel light

That sheering pain in my toe was wonderful
Why?
Because for 1 2 3 4 5 seconds.
The pain in my heart was absent.
The pain in my toe makes it hard to walk.
The pain in my toe is ripping my skin.
The pain in my toe is drilling my bone.
But the pain in heart makes it hard to breath.
The pain in my heart rips my dignity
The pain in my heart drills my soul.
So for a second longer,
please let my toe hurt.