A plant
watered
with jealousy
will only end up
withered
and
thorny

I wish that no fights
occur between families
all I wish is love

insecurities insecurities
feeding on my mind
insecurities insecurities
are my company at times.

they say that jealousy jealousy
jealously's a crime
is it really that bad
to want something to be mine?

i am breaking breaking
breaking inside
yet i'm putting up a
a facade full of lies

everyone promises promises
that it'll be alright
all that they're telling me telling me
is false hope and white lies.

it is keeping me keeping me
awake through the night
it is killing me killing me
slowly inside.

can't you see can't you see?
insecurities eating me alive.
dear mister insecurity
won't you just leave me to peacefully die?

It is misleading to say
That I am trying my best
When I am actually trying
To prevent myself from getting worse
To prevent that state of being
When I can no longer stand
And sitting up becomes unbearably hard
When every part of me is at its lowest
And my mind has completely given up
I lie still waiting
For my physical being to die with me