forever grateful for you and every little thing that you do.
kindness shapes every little part of you—
makes your heart malleable,
like the dough kneaded by ami
to make me her crispy wale parathas
every day when i wake up at zohr time,
when the world has already started for everyone.

but for me—
the world drops dead when you close your eyes,
and the universe becomes tangible
only when you open them.
at the same time as me.

your voice,
woven in gossamer threads,
wraps me into a cocoon
and then slowly, slowly unwraps me
until i’m a blue morpho butterfly
on her desk,
with a 10-hour mark on her baby pink timer—
matching his white one.

make sure you do one thing at least a day:
either the pre-med questions
or the anki flashcards.

i agree.
we’ll make the chat too spicy in discord—
with firing neurons,
and “i’m so proud of you”s,
and w’s.

i’ll make sure you understand the concept of resonance energy
by making you feel it.

so when i am electrocuted by the d key,
the numbness in my hand
turns into this debilitating blue numbness
in my baby’s malleable, precious heart—
and then we fix it.

together.
with all the scotch tapes
and the double-sided ones,
and the cardboard pieces from your drawers—
piece by piece.

a 4-hour call;
of crocheting,
moving in and out
of the seams of us.

we really did become a mosaic
of all the people that we love.
maybe talking about the teachers
in your khala's school,
knitting sweaters in the kitchen
for their loved ones—
made you feel like you could do anything.

resonance energy.
you carry the same energy
of all the people in your stories—
and with your gossamer threads
pull me back inside the cocoon
when you miss me
(when i miss you)
and fall back to sleep, holding me.

so close—
we're not even a heartbeat away now.

love,
i will find a way back to you in my dreams—
where you are in my lap,
and nothing has ever hurt you before,
and nothing will hurt you again.

call out to me,
and i will be up at 6:24
to get you off your desk.
no more apex without me.

we only play apex
when i’m in your lap as you play,
tracing my fingers
along the canvas of your face,
and kissing you stupidly—
until you are senseless.

Atar (fire), a primary symbol    
             of Zoroastrianism
Ahura Mazda Zarathustra                      aša (asha) /
arta Persia/Iran Faravahar
                                                  Angel­s and demons:
Amesha Spentas Yazatas Ahuras
                              \              Daevas Angra Mainyu
[Scripture and worship
Avesta Gathas Yasna Vendidad Visperad
   Yashts Khordeh Avesta Ab-Zohr ]     |
   The Ahuna Vairya Invocation Fire Temples
   Names of Ahura-Mazda    ::
  Accounts and legends
  [Dēnkard Bundahišn Book of Arda Viraf
   Book of Jamasp Story of Sanjan Chinvat
      [                   ],  [               ] 
     (                       )
Frashokereti (frašō.kərəti)           
   is the Avestan-language
term (corresponding to Middle Persian frašagird <plškrt>)
for the Zoroastrian doctrine of a final renovation
of the universe, when evil will be destroyed,
   and everything else will be then in perfect
   unity with God (Ahura Mazda). The name suggests
   "making wonderful, excellent";
The doctrinal premises are good         will eventually
                                           prevail over evil; creation
                                        was initially perfectly good,
            but was subsequently corrupted by evil;
     the world will ultimately be restored
     to the perfection    it   had at the time of creation;
     the "salvation for the individual
            depended on the sum
           of [that person's] thoughts,  words and deeds,
and there could be no intervention,
      whether       compassionate or capricious,
                    by any divine being to alter this."
     Thus,        each human bears the responsibility
     for the fate of his own soul,
     and simultaneously                shares in the responsibility
     for the fate of the world - - -    Resurrection of the dead,
or resurrection
from the dead       (Koine: ἀνάστασις [τῶν]
     νεκρῶν, anastasis [ton] nekron; literally:
                   "standing up again of the dead";
is a term frequently                   used in the New Testament
and in the writings                      and doctrine and theology
in other religions
                   to describe
                  an event by which a person,
or people are resurrected (brought back to life).
In the New Testament of the Christian Bible,
the three common usages for this term pertain
to the Christ,                    rising from the dead;
the rising                  from the dead of all men,
at the end                             of this present age
                   & the resurrection
                   of certain ones in history,
                   who were restored to life.
Predominantly                                      in Christian eschatology,
the term is used to support the belief that the dead
will be brought back to life in connection
                      with end times.        Various                        other forms of this concept
can also                      be found in other eschatologies,
namely: Islamic,       Jewish and Zoroastrian
eschatology.               In some Neopagan views,
this refers                            to reincarnation
          between the three realms:
          Life, Death, and the Realm of the Divine; e.g.: Christopaganism.