I can't sleep, though my eyes are weary,

I can't eat, though my stomach is empty.

I can't dream, though my mind is restless,

I can't think about nothing but you.

My muscles clenched and aching,

My heart throbs fast and strong.

the fear that i could lose you,

makes my body cry out in pain.

I'll try desperatley to hide it,

I'm not as strong as you,

though i try.

Lifes not worth living,

without you by my side.

The night whirrs and howls,

calls to me,

but i stay hidden.

I don't want what i used to,

My future dosn't matter,

unless its with you.

Do you want other people?

Just make the hurting stop,

What did i do wrong,

to push you away?

Just tell me that you love me,

That you can't live without me.

Even if your lying,

I'd rather nto face the pain,

the truth,

not tonight.

Shh; wait for the sun,

Idont want to wake up.

Let me lie here,

Warm in your arms.

Kiss my wouds,

Heal me,

Stop the pain.

Be the one i need most,

My heart is breaking.

carry me through,

You promised me you'd keep me safe from pain.

I trust you,

I love you,

I need you,

I dont care past is past.

She wont have you,

Not while i still need you.

I always will,

Will you?

Cut
Not the slicing of my arms
Or the deep flesh wouds i draw
But the cutting of relationships
Gone.
I was cut of
As cold as a winters night in the middle of a snow storm
There was no more -
Big sis, and baby girl.
There was nothing
But the odor of the burnt ashes that sat buried beneath our tongues.
Words that were yelled
Like the fire flys lighting the nigh sky, appearing rapidly and disappearing with only a small resemblance from the past.
Once free from our greedy and angered mouths
Nothing can be taken back
Nothing can be undone.
With those words you said
And my actions
You had cut me off
Telling me u loved me, but we were no more.
I yelled and cried
But you weren't coming back.
3 years.
We missed so much of each other's lives.
I, peering into yours through the gaps of the curtins you hung up.
And you looking down from your castle, only for a time wondering who i was.
Finally we had something.
But everyone pulled us down.
No one trusted you or believed you
No one loved u like i did.
I was the only one who stood there with you
Yes unable to help
But I was there.
3 years we had.
Now no more.