Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
There is an unwriteable in my life,
An unspeakable in my mouth,
An undreamable in my sleep.
Such a hurt,
That I cannot even skirt
Around it, hint at what
The unpermitted is.
A blank space in my head
Once remembered,
Now consumed.
As a doe absorbs her kittens,
I unlearn myself,
Unwritten from existence,
And unspoken evermore.
SG Holter Nov 2014
Arms to the ground.
I have fought my last
Battle.

Boots off, socks too.
I will search; explore
No more.

Head down, to rest upon
My woman's chest.
Not one night

On solitary pillow
Ever again.
The end of my life

As I have known it.
I'll never be less than
Two. Sad pen to

The ground. This might
Be the last poem I'll ever
Need to write.

Bandaged wounds that
Bled ink healing. All my
Smiles are unwriteable, now.
smallhands Nov 2014
Rebellion never tasted so good
These are the things I thought I knew, I sing
Plagiarising the familiar, sewing it on my tongue
We crept, locked doors, did the unwriteable

Did I really know before
When we're on the phone you playfully tell me
It was all a ploy, a clever ruse, me saying I had
so much to say
You stay on the line anyway

It gets better, they told us, and you pinned your
dream to your body
I told you, now you can relax with snowcapped
mountains on your chest
And you said, I will, but I would prefer you

Do you like staring at the back of my head
While everyone talks about law and confusing
things I typically ignore
Glancing back to you is my favourite part
We study the statue and then I leave to
read sonnets, you depart with the others to the water
The library feels empty without you

Remember when we were looking through old
cassette tapes and CDs and I put my hand on top
of yours for the first time?
That was rebellion, too
After lonely, after relapse after relapse
I found a light
and I held onto it

-c.j.
I have a script in a language no one knows, only unwriteable letters and unspeakable words. And as I try to read aloud words that was never there; I think.
I think the light brings life.
But with light comes shadow, that I know; Inevitable is the shadows of life. Admitting that nothing can be without the light, yet spare me the blinding shadows, clouding my vision more than any light ever could. Staring up at a bright moon, I find shadows glow a thousand times brighter than they should. Thus I fail to see light, blinded by a glowing gloom, a deafening darkness. Right beneath the glowing moon I stand, in the spotlight in my life's performance, yet my face is lit with a shade than no one can see. Except me.
But now I see the light! A  petrifying sight.
The light in a thousand pair of eyes. Eyes that believe, expect or judge... yet all fail to see. I avoid their gaze, but I am too late; my mind is a haze. And with a script in my hand no one ever wrote, a poisonous fog spreds to the brightest corners of my mind. I have been poisoned by my own shadow, and the shadow that keepers of loving eyes casts on me. Expected to perform under a  spotlight I cannot see, with this script that no one wrote. I struggle to read letters never written, and even though Im thinking, nothing comes to mind.
Dennis Willis Apr 2019
Whats
What were you born with?

What would you add or change?

What would you add or change to your children?

What might your parents have added or changed in you?

What, when I was a child

What if the races mix?

What if the commies win?

A homosexual does what?

Wut?

What to fear now.
What to want now.
In that order.

We secrete this
into our environment
say what

wut wut wut

sing
What's goin' on
pour what

On me
tasty new
never before

What
Is
That
what

I'm a what-er
wuter?
I wuter all day....nah

Apparently a word
That can't be
Soundly said

I am unspeakable?
I what-er all day long?
Unwriteable?

What is going on here?
I'm losing the what
Is the point
what now

Not enough who
in my life
perhaps I should be more of a
who-er?

Ahma
who-er
for readers
Who-er for you-er
Ah bring
the what-er

***


Copyright@2019 Dennis Willis

— The End —