She probably shouldn't talk about him ever again,
Since she is the one who left him without a trace.
She probably should leave him alone,
and stop regretting things that happened because of her own fault.

But today, please let her ramble about him.
For the very last time.

When she met The Taurian that Summer,
She thought nothing would ever happen.
A little chit-chat here and there,
Laughing for some high school memories,
life update, and lastly, a few selfies won't hurt anybody.

Before he left her at the MRT Station, he said that,
He would go to Japan. For 6 months.
She nodded.
She didn't notice,
that he will be the one that haunts her mind for a good 3 years.

They texted like crazy.
He never dates anybody before,
She might be the first gal that showered with his attention.

It was all making her so happy.
Well, she thought she fell for him.

That one night, She received a postcard from him
the one that she puts on her bible.
& other night, He sent her a Merry Christmas note with a big Christmas tree in Osaka, Japan.

But then, she left him.
She left him;
She thought, she loved him.
She thought everything that she ever asked for is that Taurian.

But he isn't.

He is indeed haunting her mind.
He is indeed making her sorry.

But maybe it's too late.

"Can we look at stars?" She asked.
So we stepped out of our lives
Into the pillars of creation.
The chill was biting but
The light from the most beautiful taurian sky I had ever seen washed upon our gaze and warmed our hearts.
Taurus the bear the hunter and an unknown star brighter than all others
the Queen of the sky herself came to visit this solemn night.
As we stood in the cold for those few fleeting moments
The universe heard the call of her sad heart.
And the stars fell from the heavens
in a show of radiant jubilee unmatched in this life.
When the book of the sky opened itself and shared its wisdom for all to see
it was speaking to us.
To her.
"Everything will be alright."
It said.
Heard loud and clear.

2016 is coming to its end.
If someone ask me about my achievement this year,
I will tell them, how this year taught me a lot.

I broke up with my 2-year-boyfriend.
I fell for someone who had the idea of the perfect boyfriend, but sadly I cannot fall for him completely.
And finally, I realized that I fell for my best friend.

This year taught me not only how I jump into people's hearts.
But, it taught me about finding and losing people.

It's funny when I first try to move on from my ex,
And God give me that Taurian, who perfectly describes the guy of my dream.
But, I could never fall in love with him.
So I walked away.

That regret came to my mind.
Maybe I could just try to fall for him.

But, nahhh.
Love is not something to learn about.
It's a feeling. And your heart would know when it comes to "the one".

In the late July, I realized that I fell for my bestfriend.
I thought it's only a crush or something temporary.
But, finally I realized, it's him.

For once in my life, I could finally be sure of someone.
I'm no longer hestitate things, I do believe that the one exists.
It's funny how all the pain just instantly erased from my mind and my heart.
And I just fall for him.

I never thought that I would have this sweetest guy,
I never thought that we could be together right now.

What I learned from this year is,
I believe good things really take time.
I believe for everything bad that could possibly happen in your life, something good will eventually come to you.
I learned to give myself a break, and take time to figure things out by myself.
What I want and what I need in life.
I learned that not everything you captured perfect in your mind will always be the one that you want and need.
Maybe it's just not it.
I learned not to lower my standards, or my tolerancy,
I learned to respect and value myself more.
I learned, someone that is all I ever wanted is really do exist.
I learned everything is possible.

*My dreams is no longer about freedom or travelling the world, I dream about home. About him.

Born in the Taurian month of the Rabbit's year,
Raffy is a brother's name of rarest humor;
Ornate with friends for his compassionate nature,
Truly a rough gem to be polished still;
His life can be called an intricate topsy-turvy,
Every puzzle piece is woven by familial love
R**est assured he is blessed, and a blessing from above.