Not a beauty queen
No silver screen
No Emny though I want one
Just you and me
Me and You
Never going to be
Feet on the ground
Reaching for stars yet unseen
You know want I meant
You know what I mean
Never going to be more than what I am
Not sure what that will turn out to be
Still a work in progress stlll hard to be believed
No greater love in tbe world than what we share
For some never going to be
Never going to be

Up there far, far away
Where the atmosphere is strange
In a sparkly milky way.
There is a star, a violet star
Lemon insides burns deep
A sharp intake of breath
Pierces its inner core
Falls to its death
and is no more.
Up there far, far away
A violet cloud drapes
There was a star, a violet star
Where mist stlll escapes
from moonbeams in a jar.

Your words are pressing against my chest
Feeling if I’m stlll alive.
Ironically it was those same three words
That made me want to die

I love you???  Come on, quit joking, me!
I love you!

you come to me in my rainny day
you say to me that you’re fine
can you feel me since the day we met
can you hear my voice
can you say that you’ll be my mysterious color
should I choose between black or white?
Hide or show?
Would you describe the way I handle this
Or you just stay away and still in silence
Isn’t hard to found your forest?
Or you gonna find your land in another world
Isn’t hurt to make a diference in our story?
Still, it will be kind if we’re fine
Real love will always meet their lock
You, Me or whoever still have a chance to be better
Now, get out from your bed
Brush your tooth
Taking a bath and meet your own sunrise
It’s stlll morning to pick up our happines
Be happy, start with smile
And let rainbow coloring your life

A month ago when time stood stlll,
with hanging mouth and speech distorted
an ambulance appeared to take you in

It took a shock to make a change
enough to feel how it was needed
to reset everything and re-begin

Week one - stand still and learn
your body's beating inner language

Week two - reflecting outward
on the things you hardly knew

Week three - the first steps into
a training to recover

Week four - concluding practise
to integrate what's new

Each moment is a starting point
for new directions and behaviors
and each day brings a chance out of the blue ♡

Eelco van der Waals
20 August 2025