"ophidiophobia" poems
i. arachnophobia; fear of spiders. more common in females than males, why at night you choke on the idea of her fingers on him, long and thin.
ii. ophidiophobia; fear of snakes, fear of being crushed alive by commitment, why in the mornings you never left your number, why you don’t call her back, why you regretted it later.
iii. acrophobia; fear of heights. why she stays out of circuses and away from people like you who would make her fall in love.
iv. agoraphobia; fear of situations where escape is difficult, fear of the plane that takes her away, fear of the open crowded space of your ribcage where paintings of her still constantly hang.
v. cynophobia; fear of dogs, fear of the graves where good noses could dig up the mistakes you have made, fear of a girl who made you want to get a puppy and settle down somewhere finally.
vi. astraphobia; fear of thunder and lightning, fear of being alone in a house that always sounded like both, the stormclouds of your histories always brewing behind flimsy doors. fear of finding her there and having her kiss you in the rain. fear she’d never come back to you again.
vii. trypanophobia; fear of injections, fear of drugs, fear of the doctor who looked into your heart and told you that your shaky hands and bad dreams were a sign that she’s crept into your sleep.
viii. social phobias; fear of social situations, fear of your father’s white knuckles on the wheel while he says, “no son of mine is a ***** like this,” fear of her mother’s judgement, fear of not being enough.
ix. pteromerhanophobia; fear of flying, fear of remembering how long it’s been since you actually felt alive, why you trembled whenever you held her tight, why one day she frightened you so bad that you left in the middle of the lonely night.
x. mysophobia; fear of germs. why you knew you’d only get her covered in dirt. why looking at yourself in the mirror always seems to hurt. why you will never be happy without being hers. out of this whole messed up world, she was the only thing pure.
Feb 15, 2015
Feb 15, 2015 at 7:58 PM UTC
I loved the way the
lies
Slithered off of her
tongue
Making me feel like a
grown man
Even though my
actions were young
Yeah I was dumb
And at the time
Dumb was fun
That’s until I was overcome
With her venom
Leaving my body numb
Only feeling the
after affects
Of this meticulous attack
Not realizing I was
trapped
I had become an easy
snack
Her voice was so seductive
Telling me I must eat
the fruit
Even though I was
reluctant
I hungered for the
truth
The knowledge of good
and evil
Marinated in its
juice
Lost in the
wilderness
Because I chose to
break this truce
Blindly loyal
Constricted by her
coil
Her cold blood warmed
As my cool blood
boiled
Crushing everything
that was in me
Consuming everything
that was left
Keeping me alive-Only
so I can be
Cognizant of this
cruel
And painful death
Oct 1, 2012
Oct 1, 2012 at 1:19 AM UTC
There is a snake.
Its many beautiful scales criss-cross over
my heart. I. I. I.
promised to never tell a soul
and hoped to die.
I'll be swallowed whole.
Boa-constricting inside my head
until the ink coloured poison drip drops till
i'm dead
Jul 6, 2016
Jul 6, 2016 at 3:59 PM UTC