I was day dreaming
or nightmaring
I'm still not sure
but this girl
Her face,
her eyes.
Everything about her made me remember her.
I wanted to find her
in reality when I woke up
To tell her I cared
but why
She wasn't real
not really
I felt some compulsion to do something that I couldn’t do
Find someone I didn’t know
Had likely created
Tell them I wished I could have stopped
Some memory that never happened.

I've been thinking
I've been dreaming
And... I've been nightmaring

I want to love him
I want him to love me
Learn about me and then still love me

I want him to hear of my gruesome times
and then kiss me with such surety
that it helps my soul stop quivering