I'm either clinging to you
Like velcro
Or farther away sitting next to you
Than if I were on the other side of the planet.

I'm either rambling on
About nothing but also everything
Or I don't utter a single word
Sitting in the background chewing my fingers.

I either want you to know me,
My every thought and whim
Or to know absolutely nothing of me
Like I nevee even existed.

I'm all in
Or you never really had me.

You are either god
Or you are the devil.

There is nothing in between.

I never really grasped what grey meant.

Its not that I fear falling in love. I am in love with many things in this world I love animals, I  love my family, I love thr sunset, I love my friends, I love a lot of things. What I do fear, however is falling so deeply in love with someone and investing my life into theirs only to discover that they do not feel the same way about me. To me, that is how you die while still breathing and you can nevee recovee from that no matter how hard you try. The scariest parr about this is that you're nevee going to know if you are falling for the wrong person. That's what I am afraid of...

Watching a bkank page
Wishing that I am smaller in age
To start drawing whatever I had in my mind
Without thinking about what others will say
I feel bad for those who see by their eyes but not heats
who touch but never caress
Who smell but never appreciate
Who read but never feel
Who hear but never understand
Who wants but nevee love
who buy but never give
Who work but never enjoy
Who wish but never do
Who smile but never laugh
Who fall but never stand
I hate them because they breathe but never live.