Here I go again
Dating the Wind
When It blows west
Times are the best
but when It blows East
Unleashed is the beast
Sovereignty in me
Subdued to the least
by Miscomprehension
and Bipolarist addiction
I’m left with my love
More a state of affliction

It was a Sunday night,
a Sunday night that was
truly a Monday morning,
but the darkness,
coupled with
the heaviness of my body's
desire for rest,
to me it still felt like
nighttime.

The sweetly scented candles
flickered silently,
their aroma
filling my nostrils
as the sounds of
a
cliché romance movie
filled my
eardrums.

The dry red wine
poured smoothly
from
        the bottle to
                             my empty glass
        for the fourth time
   that
night.

Yes, it was a Sunday
night,
the pain and miscomprehension
clouding my mind
more than
another glass or
another hit
ever could.

How heavy
it all
    weighed


down
on
me

that
Sunday night;

That Sunday night,
I knew
I loved you,
but you never
loved me
back, and

That
Sunday night,
in the
darkness,
I sipped slowly,
blinked softly,
and
out
came
the
tears

that
I
had
resisted

for
many
nig­hts
just
like
this.

It was a Sunday night
when I finally
cried.

Again.

Yo to keep it 100 -
If I could go back in time I wouldn't.
Let the records hold they place.
I'm done tryin to convince you both the things I been threw.
Before my jersey was in  the rafters,
I was like Vince before he left the Raptors,
Bounding over boundaries like I had shox in my shoes.
You see I tried to impress the judges - I was shocked by the boo's,
My heart turned colder than Toronto cause all my exes were actors,
See I had to ditch diplomacy ; depend against my attackers,
I felt like a loan warrior and then suddenly - I grew,
My limbs stretched further than my imagination,
My torso was more so like a river basin,
but as my body grew in size , the guilt I carried did too,
Before I knew it - my shadow covered the ground like a sheet,
Amazed by the mass I had amassed - I was in disbelief I now stood more than 81 ft,
Now everything I never knew was within my reach,
But peep
The burdens that I bear be on some revenant.
I fed my guilt, it fed off me - I was JUST like Rick Moranis.
I'm Ja Morant or maybe more like Miles Morales..
I'm more and more embarrassed ..by the Aurora Borealus..... left by my shame.
I was forced to swallows my pride - **** be ****** up my larynx,
But I'm boarding up my barracks,
And I'm suggesting you to do the same,
I'm running gags like lil homie from home alone,
I been on DND ever since karma called my home,
Mfs want my jazz but not my blues - I'm more like Karl Malone,
I tried to blame the refs for my fugue state,
when it was me that here .. in the first place.
The victim was the culprit.

Over me it loomed -
dropped an anvil of anguish like they do in ****** tunes,
I'm hangin on by a thread not even lilo could stitch me,
Had to walk it like I talk it - fate tied the shoes on my tongue,
My skin singed by the sharp pain of the 1000 looks,
My skull crushed under the weight of 1000 books,
I had to eat my words, I couldn't stomach it,
My indigestion was incomprehensible,
My miscomprehension of of my tendons was indefensible,
The guilt of feelin like a ship with no direction.
That gut feelin to cut feelins cause **** get deep like a Cesarean Section..

What can I say
That has not been said?
What words do I have
But those in my head?

How could I phrase
When words can’t be found?
How could I know
Miscomprehension profound?

What do I wait for?
Where do I go?
Who do I search for?
How should I know?

So do what you do,
Just say what you mean;
There’re words you owe me
Somewhere I’ve never seen.

I play WoW.


playing WoW because its WoW and it makes me say wow! that’s all i know, so what if you don’t like it did you even try it ok you did and you say you didn’t like it but i really love it and have so much to do so i truly don’t care what you do or don’t do but if you find a thing that makes you happy, then clap with me, go be happy! if it makes you feel something then go be king of your own little castle i’m past being kind it ain’t worth the hassle so now i only speak truth and this is no lie i pass my time without getting high because WoW is my high it feel aight and i ain’t saying anything about what you do so join the queue if you want to make a complaint because i ain’t no saint but i'll show you patience, forget about the rain dance i'm flipping birds with calvin klein showing in my waist band and i can do what i want just as you can too so how about you what’s your next move do you want me to reach you or even teach you or do you wanna just complain about a thing that you don’t even do. If you wanna hate me for playing my game then that’s just lame and I aint got the time to be listening to your lies or even your miscomprehension’s i just thought i’d mention what i like to do for fun so take your gun and put it back in the holster and put your cup on the coaster this is no pig sty just a guy with long hair saying hi my name is irrelevant to you if all your gonna do is boo then may i be excused from this conversation, i gotta take a vacation from your atmosphere, in fact i gotta get the hell out of here if all your gonna do is moan here’s a loan go buy what you need to make you happy, i pay my subscription because it feels good to me to be an orc or even a human they may claim they boring but my 80’s blowing though them like they ain’t even there just a wizard on a planet that somebody created and you just slate it and player hate it well hate the player and not the game because the game will change and improve with age and you will decrease until you cease to be and i’ll still be playing with my little Gnomies and big ol’ Boar are you keeping score and if not write a recipe i just learned three and it thrilled me to pieces. time to take a pause you want the applause for claiming your idea is better than ever but the weather ain’t changing and I’m still playing but some noob needs advice so you get what I’m saying brb to you when I’m in the mood, gotta go make my Tauren say Moo not to you of course your busy murdering pixels in your chosen Call, but i **** things in a fantasy world don’t need reality in my imagination don’t care for a nation or a flag to fly under i gotta dragon to ride and a bridge to swoop under just for fun ok young go grow up a lot and i will still be here playing its a thing i got and you ain’t taking it from me.  Got bone through the speakers and some herbs to collect this calls collect do you wish to accept or just close your eyes to the possibility of anybody but you being right?  Aight!  Peace I’ll leave you to it you can keep on talking, I’m outta here...Grinding you down is sooooo boring.


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