Why the hell do I feel alone? can you answer my questions? Im drowning in a deep black hole,how the **** is that even possible?Well in my world it is possible,cause its happening to me!You understand? What about how every year I put death on my birthday wish list?
What about how I have the pain of dying on my bucket list,
or how Id love to just cut my hole body up until I have to cut over the other cuts?
Do you understand how I feel like i'm choosing this path for myself but in reality the path chose me I just was so young so I followed it?
Do you still understand?
you can help?
Me?
YOU?
Haven't I explained enough?
NO,you can't help me!
Its impossible,
Medication just makes me feel like ****,
talking to you makes me just wanna punch you in the ******* face until you just shut  the hell up,
Ive been to hospitals they just stalk me thats it.
do you really think that helps?
you cant help me?
you'll try but you’ll miserably fail?
The monster in me will destroy you if you try to help me!
it will not only make you suffer it will **** me.
You say you can help me but, there is no way that is possible.
I'm shattered glass on the pavement no longer able to be fixed
iIm broken never to be fixed

it's me
i miisss yookuouoso muruch i dontnowottodoabouutitit
iim acaar fulll of ******, a shipp ffull of sssailas
a ccsamp fullof boyscouutss

it's you
twiddledy-twiddly-twiddle the kknob
pussshing thhe buutons, fiftyytwo, fourtythree, tennn-hup
a maggneticpo leto my compasss

it's us
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kkksksiashiuyiddrirttranoth erone, go on, doit
do it aagin, ynotit works dunnitit

it's ours
and from over here it loooks likke
we'll never get tto do it evva again, unnless
itl earns anoth erlanguage
thhatw ebothu ndusttaaaand

It's a world that doesn't care
A world that isn't fair

And I'm laughing
Yes I'm laughing

At my unattractive body
At these long limbs

Yes I'm laughing
Iim laughing

As I watch women
Pleasure themselves
On Chaturbate cams

I'm laughing
I'm laughing

Laughing at a body
That will not change
Into the form I desire

I'm laughing
I'm laughing

At my unfulfilled
****** desires

Yes I'm laughing
At a world
That doesn't care

And you saw me standing
Under a tree over there

I'm laughing
At the mistakes
Man makes over
And over again

Trillions of dollars
In debt piled
High to the sky

I don't flirt with women
I don't even try

I sat alone
I write these poems
Listening to U2

There is nothing
I can do
Except
Keep on
Keeping On

And as I walked
Into the gym

Did I see her
Hit the ****?

Medicinal marijuana perhaps
She was parking in the slot
For the handicapped

People keep asking
"How are you?"

My heart rate is fine
I look at the clock
It tells the time

And every now and then
I have a sip of wine

The bestseller i read
sitting on my cozy bed
about the girl who loved books
she had such a beautiful look

Her passion it was
Her dream it was
While during a lecture in iim college
an professional author with wife wearing wedges

became her fan
wanted to become her man
but how would he handle his own life with two loves
like a play master who had his two dear doves

He had a loving wife
and also a smooth life
it is a cocktail of  redemption,love and betrayal
an Indian author could only show this beautiful portrayal

so i heard you found somebody new
but it’s fine cuz Iim happy for you

IIm short but i become tall
My obstacles are like coins, mushrooms and sun flowers
I run thru the journey that is called life.
My life is depended on my choices and how far i jump, my faith is like my feet.
Moment of time comes when im unstoppable like the star dancing thru its phases and stages
The start is always difficult at the beginning but it becomes easy at the end.
Every level is a reward and a lesson.
I save the princess from the devil to be with me in my castle.
When i'm powerful i can spit fire
Every dark tunnel has a virtue
Every obstacle contains fortune you just have to smash it to find the gold coin
Clarity is the superpower that makes you rise like the sun that becomes like the sunflower
Im the gamer that plays the game every level is something new
If you don't jump you don't know how far you will be.
Im the smash brothers!

for every day that goes by we get weary of each other that time goes by and each day my heart continues to break not saying anything was a mistake but then again i could be completely wrong no doubt about it when we can talk but never together cant have a ******* conversation but yet have every ******* thing to ***** about im told iim not asked to do anything yet if the house is messy and its not clean its my fault everythings my fault