I remember the night you sang Objects in the Mirror to me on the phone.
I never thought that it would feel this way.
You never taught me how to heal the pain.
I wish you caught me on a different day, when it was easier to be happy.
I kinda find it strange, how the times have changed.
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I remember how we used to talk about love, like it was an institutionalized little child, drug down from what glory it used to hold; how it used to transcend time and knowledge and beauty and all other emotion.
Someone like you is so hard to find.
I remember that you thought I was put together perfectly. I still don’t understand how you ever reached that end of the spectrum, completely opposite my own view. I still don’t understand how everyone around me sees someone that I don’t see when I look in the mirror. I’m anti-altruistic and unintelligent and completely guilt ridden and not at all beautiful.
All I ask is don’t you worry, I won’t hurt you, don’t you worry.
I remembered how much stock I put in you. I remember how you promised you wouldn’t hurt me, because you had been put through the same wringer as I. I remember how you just unattached yourself one day, on the bias that it was my fault. You stranded me. Probably for another, prettier, girl.
Listen to me I will set you free,
He ain’t gonna break your heart again.
And I could never figured out what that particular line meant in the scheme of things, but I realize now, as you’re trying to drift back into my life with the drive of a listless breeze, you were setting me up for the next heartbreak.
After all, all my life really is, is a string of heartbreak.
Go through the worst to reach the ecstasy.
Wish we could go and be free, once baby you and me,
We could change the world forever, and never come back again.
I remember the feeling that bloomed in my heart when I realized someone like you cared about someone like me. That someone like you wanted to fix someone like me. Then I reached the conclusion that depression and mental illness isn’t attractive. That you were drawn to the prettier parts of me that resembled tarnished silver, in the hopes that you would have time to break in your silver polish in the spare time and privacy of your awful little home town.
You don’t havta cry.
And mend a broken hearted girl if you can, I don’t expect you to be capable.
You have the world right in your hands, your responsibility is unescapable.
I realized that boys don’t like sad girls, but you could see what I could be. I thought you wanted to help me and fix me, but eventually shouldering a burden that isn’t your own gets too heavy to carry. It gets heavier and heavier through the crying, sleepless nights that you would guide me through with your lantern, which became duller each time I needed saving.
Don’t even say you’re about to end it all,
Your life is precious ain’t no need to go and **** yourself.
Then you left.
On my watch.
On my fault.
On something that wasn’t really my fault.
I promise that I’ll be a different man,
Give me the chance to go and live again.
But here you are with nonchalance and no apologies for the tears wasted on you.
There may be another boy toying with my broken pieces, fitting me together because he can see the beauty you saw.
But here you are pretending you still care and still find me beautiful.
There may be beauty in this other boy who helps me, who is just as broken as me, another boy who shares my pain in what I’ve never gotten.
But here you are rehashing memories of nights spent crying over a song.
You don’t have to cry.
Let’s leave it all in the rearview.
But here I am, telling you that broken girls give second chances.
Let’s leave it all in the rearview.
But here I am, telling you that I’m halfway mended.
Let’s leave it all in the rearview.
But here I am, telling you that for me, once you’ve left you cannot re-enter.
Leave it all in the rearview.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SpUE9F7rp20
Objects in the Mirror by Mac Miller
