i feel like everything's falling apart,

if i would be in movie, i'm lost and i do
n't know the parts.

the world doesn't make me feel alive anymore,

i can't even feel the beat of my own heart anymore.

i was thrown into a loop of feeling nothing and being nothing,

noise, disturbant noise, is all i could hear

black, pitch black, is all i could see yet i feel no fear,

numbness, is all i could feel, even though my limbs are ripping apart.

no light, no pain, nothing.

and all at once, i feel nothing with the beat of my own heart.

- i know that my heart beating, but i'm barely breathing.

it started with stolen glances
where i allowed myself to dominate— fill it with the soul of you,
it was as if the moment have been familiar of us, that i started to pour myself for it taught me it was souly for us;
quite an illicit that i learn to flow in a disturbant waves— silent, in an absence of colors

and you drowned me with black and greys in hope i could grasp meanings

why do i hope in this absent lighting i’m in
clear as it is it’s empty
like an absence of torches
and maybe i still hope of something you never give,

in a place like this, i still hope of you
and what could‘ve been

if it’s us.