"decisons" poems
I speak the language of the ambiguous man
Two false tunnels leading to the paradise once existent
Suffocating in the soul the heart pumps mysterious labyrinths
Intricate twists, lively turns, dead ends, corrupt memories
All leading to the same two doors
Handles made from cherry blossom to conceal ****** wrists
Misleading as barren rock behind the sodden waterfall
And deceitful as the smiles of killers pending demise
I like to fool the world with my duplicitous decisons
Peeping through one door just to go through the other
There lay two paths divided in a somber world
The ambiguity of man prevails
Only when a single door leads to the innocent simplicity
But the truth about lies prevail
When the man not knows what he does
And navigates through his own mindful solitude
I intrude in a broken world filled with people most pernicious
Some call them deceivers while some call them philosophers
Depends on how they see the truth of ambiguity
Two parallel bridges to cross a sea most demoniac
While only one bridge armed with the truthful support
But the world feels much too simple without rails to grasp
As there is nothing to hinder the peaceful descent
Smoothly into that paradise once existent
I'd fairly not speak about the truthful man
But rather the lying hero
For he has more knowledge with the concept of ambiguity
But whom does the stray bullet in the revolver take?
The truthful man or the lying hero?
If the truthful man chooses not the rails out of pride
And the lying hero slashes his wrists out of regret
At first I settle with those who favor the liar
But if I had two bullets
I would see that the pride would also suffice
As the ambiguous man shall die twice
For ambiguity is anything but simplicity
Jan 29, 2014
Jan 29, 2014 at 1:15 AM UTC
Lunch was done, decisons made
the table cleared, the bill was paid
Final words were spoken
And none more truer than..
Have your people call my people
And we'll do this again.
They went back to the office
And they thought, hey he was right
I'll have my people call his people
And we'll hit the bar tonight
Funny how a line like that
Can set one's mindset soaring
Sitting down and making plans
It sure broke up the boring
Afteroon ahead, that each of them could see
But going out again that night
Well, then they would be free
Wives at home, while they were out
Drinking, flirting...what the hey
The ony question left now
Was which of them would pay?
But as one's folk called the others
And the plans were carved in stone
They would finish out their day
And then they would head home
They'd have "my people call your people"
And plan a meeting late
They would do it on the sly
It would be their watergate
But, people being people
Their plans were overheard
By a coniving young new intern
And she wrote down every word
Since she was one of the people
She started making calls
Phoning every number of every wife
This woman sure had *****
She told them how "the people"
planned to go out after work
How their family type duties
Each one had planned to shirk
So these people called their people
And made plans of their own
They would keep it all a secret
Until the men got home
Men forget that wives have people
And that their people kind of rule
When the men all try to hide stuff
By doing stuff that isn't cool
The men, all smug and smiling
Thinking of the fun to ahead
Would walk on in their house
And stay until the kids were all in bed
Then their people would start calling
Making sure the lie was told
About that late night meeting
At a bar where beer was cold
But, that coniving young new intern
Making calls to all the wives
Had laid out every detail
Had ruined all their lives
As each man sat for dinner
Thinking of what the night would bring
At each house, just 5 minutes in
Every phone would ring
It was her people calling people
Telling each wife where to meet
They would have to leave the husbands
And they would not be so discreet
For their people all called people
And the men's plans all were blown
As the women went out drinking
And left the men at home
So next time when your people
Call and plan things on the side
Make sure your intern isn't there
Or else your plans are fried
I'll have my people phone your people
And we'll get together soon
But in order that we pull it off
We'll have to leave at noon.
May 1, 2012
May 1, 2012 at 5:58 PM UTC
lately all ive been doing is ******* up, Burning Every thing, seems like with one Touch, soon as i get one person to stop being mad at me, Bam its like another 3 all ready have a Bone they want to pick with me, forever in my mind fighting conflictions of Decisons i never wanted to make, but this world i live in has no intentions of letting me out the Gate, Fate has no Remorse it stands still while you take your Course. we never know how its going to play out, we just happen to be there for it, Rather its bad or good, we there to take it with full stride, you standing there infront of a window thinking whats wrong With suicide, Till you Realize u can go out like that, Maybe its to much pride, Maybe i can get her to see the man i use to Be, Before the scars that time left, and Sheilds that remain Kept high, when you avoiding being loved, u get comfortable with Misery, u wait for bad things to Happen, Acting as if you aint Worried about it, Untill you Face a Sittuation where you can do noting but worry about it, your mind is the first to turn, the min your eyes close, your biggest Fears take over, Main Stage pain plays, and ya heart sings, before you know it, the words that leave your your lips stained, ill do what i can just dont take my Love away, one thing ive learned on this path i seem to walk, you can Avoid love all you want, But it has a funny way of keeping up, it will never show its self untill that unknowing feeling reveals the feeling that it is and turns out it was love its self, so the question becomes what is it i was running from, or was i just hurting my self?
Sep 11, 2014
Sep 11, 2014 at 3:03 PM UTC
where you left off
will be continued again and then again
you will say the same **** every time
the same spiting
the same lies
*****
i held you down
you let me down
i cant believe it all became
the nightmare
i would run from
my daddy would tell me it wont ever happen
but i ran from the clutches the hugs the happiness
and now im numb to everything
down for anything
i cant look at myself as teh same girl i ws
im just some ******* ***** that i thought i would never become
but i have no one
******* no one
man i shoulda known
this would happen
here we go
this **** again
it never ends
it never ends
man it never ends
impuse decisons
life lessons
embrace it
disgrace it
my name is soiled
but that dont mean i dont know where i stand
where i stand is on the water with the lord
i havent been praying man
god you still hear me
you hear my thoughts ?
take them away lord
Oct 11, 2015
Oct 11, 2015 at 8:16 PM UTC
The ultimate question here.
Do I sleep my life away or
Do I forgive myself for the things I can't change?
Because they aren't losing sleep over my pain
And you can never take back the things you did but it doesn't mean it's who you are anymore.
Jun 29, 2017
Jun 29, 2017 at 11:51 PM UTC