where did you go
what did you do
where did you wake up  
I went everywhere I could
I am trying to escape
can I escape
been looking for my mind since the pixies asked me to

I did everything I could
to escape myself
over oceans to London
over arctic to Beijing
over prairie and rocks to Durango
traveling looking for myself in everything else
instead of letting go
can't I escape?

I go to work here there and everywhere
What can I get for you guys today
What kind of massage would you like today
Where do you want me to bring this artwork today
Where is my guard post today
can I never get away?

All these thoughts and all these thots  
I woke up and ran out of the filthy philly basement on acid molly and nitrous running from bats flying from the speakers
out the house
I crash then stand and smile at police lights and friends drive home from the party
I stand smiling holding her and pray they make it home with all these  
bats

I woke up here there and everywhere
Ice bag on my testicles
I awake from my morning bag
to a scared smiling face
I awake with black vision
heart nigh exploding
to crying terrified girlfriends
I awake on my steering wheel
from my weekly drive and cop
to nobody but myself
In bae's comforting arms
In the everlasting eternity my father still believes in
I awaken
I found myself

We promised to always be there for each other.
I was always your best friend and you were mine.
I told you everything about me why i was me
and the darkest parts of me.
We were inseperable, never one without the other.
I could feel you slowly leaving as you pushed me and others away.
Then you were just gone from my life.
Once you were gone I had no one to really talk to.When it started to get worse they came.
People who i had been friends with once before they betrayed me.
They were now your baes and I was nobody.
It hurts to think about you.
Can we please go back to the time before you left.