I found myself almost struggling
to keep my head under water
I dont want to breathe
but the thought of my mother crying
pulls me up like a force of gravity

I emerge above the surface
the air poisoning my lungs
i want so bad the sweet embrace of water
to blank out for a bit
but my sweet mother, like a force of gravity

.our relationship,
     was filled with toxic chemicals
          that
    s l o w l y
b u t
       s u r e l y
                        Crept Into my Body,
                                                             My Head,
                                                                                 and My Heart
Like Your Love Never Did.

Can i Borrow a Kiss?
I Promise to Give it Back.

One second I'm drowning
And the next I'm floating on water
Sometimes I don't care and sometimes I care to much
I had a friend who was allergic to bananas
Its been 2 years since we stopped talking
But I still won't touch bananas
I sit there at night staring at my phone wondering if I should text the girl I like
But i force my self to walk away because i don't want to be over bearing
Sometimes i won't message people for days because i don't care
Because i'm always the one who text them first
I'm constantly saying i'm fine when I'm not
I'm constanlty fighting with my self on if I'm being anoying