A little part of me
Still hopes
And justifies

But,
She no longer
Can control
My fate.

And I will not destroy this.
Even though,
As I type these words
Every moment
This beauty
Is flickering
Until like every candle
The wax runs out
And the wick burns out
And the light flutters for a brief moment
Fighting

And then it is gone

And it really didn’t last for that long.
I know this isn’t going to last forever.

But,
I hate the dark
Maybe it would have been better
If I was still sitting in a dark room
Alone
Never knowing all of the beautiful things
A candle could show me
And enable me to do so much more

I loved it.
And who knows how much is left?

All I know:
It is going to burn out.
And I will be left here,
Sitting alone.
In the dark.

I am not well suited
To existing in silence
White sheets in plastic bags
Absently turning printed pages
Scrolling through screens
I find nothing

No, I am not well suited
To these silent hours
That I fill restlessly
With hopeful solitude
And shivering despair
All to find nothing
But old flaking paint
And old mistakes

Isn't it odd.
People keep secrets.
A thousand envelopes.
Shut tight by two thousand signets.
Don't let them get out.
What a shame if they do.
We're afraid of people
Judging
Laughing.
Looking like a fool.
The funny thing is.
No matter who,
There are things people hide
From those near to them too.
Acceptance.
That's the word.
By word I mean world.
No soprano singing of a little girl.
You think she would sing if she chose it?
The problem here lies is that I'm a poet,
And no one I care about seems know it.

careful touches
grace over the fabric
concealing my skin
as a firm grip
pulls me in closer.
plush pink lips
swoop down
gently placed on top
of mine as the next
is partially perched
open with enough space
for our tongues
to intertwine
enhancing all desires
raging in my body.
the last is soft
and delicate before
taking a step back
allowing my shoulders
to shimmy so slightly.
the world has stopped
I am breathless
entirely caught up
in him

a never ending
streaming river
flowing steadily
down under the
ridge of the
squares that sit
upon the bridge.

I can picture us
sitting on our porch during sunrise
Rays glistening off the morning dew
Staring into eachothers
wrinkled eyes
   Indented by a thousand shared smiles
As tears of joy run down our faces
in the realization that all of our dreams came true

I can see us
gracefully reaching the end of our days
Reminiscing as the sunsets on your beautiful face
Holding tightly onto eachothers hands
   Laughing at all the things we used to do
and the thing that gets me each and everytime
is I have no doubt you see it too

To me and for me I prefer myself as a Beautiful person in the world inside and out.Why? Because Im contented on what i have and I'm blessed that i have my family that I considered  them as one of those precious people on Earth. They are a special gift that God gave me and I couldn't ask for more better than that. They were the one and always be by your side no matter what happens cause even friends can leave you but a happy family won't cause you have reach for that steps. They are the one who accepts you for who you are. The one that believes in you and most of all the one that can love you truly in times of mistakes you made and even from your own flaws. And even how big you made mistake they would still love you and never gonna leave and still forgives you at the end of time. So then I believe without my parents nor my family I can't be myself right now and I know they are my strength and my model for who I am and yet I am still proud and loved myself even in times of my pain,sadness,sorrow in my eyes and yet i still believe that time flies and always heals the pain and that's the reason why I can still make a smile for a thousand reasons to be.
Cause I know that we are only live life once in a lifetime and it can't always repeat the moment when you want to. Life is short so take every opportunity when you still have time.

There's a saying "Live life to the fullest"
All i could say is be yourself no matter what people says cause they can't change you for who you are. Go up straight and be confident for who you are cause you are one of me <3