My feet urged me on
as the wind fought against my will
and forced tears from my eyes
A passing face resembling yours
had me back tracking and
I stared back at the ghostly figure
Realizing my mind was playing tricks on me
My pace quickened hastily
The blackened Sea rushing in beside me
I allow the waves of emotion to recede
Back into the deepest part of me
Burying them in the sands of time
Knowing that the tale will forever be engraved in mind
A scar that can be spied in my manner with a well trained eye
A weakness not so easily disguised tho I try
and with my heart on my sleeve I drifted out to sea with no
life jacket to keep me from drowning
At that point I thought it easier than living
For an emotion that's so glorified adorned in beauty
It surely cuts deeper than hating ever could
Leaving you wondering which of the two is the greater evil?

As the night consumed the last rays of dusk
I prepared myself for the hours of loss
The air so thick and unsettling
Another night spent pondering
Each moment less bearble than the last
I must have been a fool to fall into this

I cling to our sheets
grasping your pillow firmly
catching faint traces of your scent
My body bent and curled into its smallest form
and I think of all the circumstances that left your promise torn
The unpredictable has robbed me once more
of all the contentment I  had held in your loving arms
and through the tears I find a way to grin ever so slightly
Holding onto the faith that carried us through our struggles previously
Your face for now remains so far from my reach
I close my eyes in desperation hoping you'll come to me in my sleep

The door is open
you're free to decide
to keep this love floating
or leave and sink it with time
I wonder
Will you think of me?
Dream of me perhaps?
Will you wave a pretty lady
with the thought of my hand?
Or will it be so easy that my face fades all together
and when someone mentions my name you relate it to
some other flower?
I wonder

Break me into pieces
And pour me over you
As if you've won
And your showing me
How victorious you truly are.

Something in
The pit of me
Broke
As fear whispered
*It's not time yet

I get so
Happy
When I
Talk about
Marrying him
And the life we could
Live together
But then we fight
And A fear arises
Perhaps he and I won't suceed
For young love dies fast
But still I want it to last
I've been praying on my knees
Since day one
And hope has yet
To die.

I have this
Never ending feeling
Not even You
Want this
To Last.