I still remember everything
Those times where we would eat out with my mother
Giving me money when we meet
Those were the fun times

Few years later
I heard you had cancer
The rarest of them all
And the kind that can't be cured

It sunk my heart like the Titanic
I was just lost for a second
And I was in deep thought
That would you still live with me and my mother

I prayed to God everyday
To keep you here on this planet
I prayed so hard
That I want you to stay

It's been 9 years that you fought it
Been praying to God day in and day out
To keep you alive
9 years

I got a phone call from a relative
I asked if she's out of her hospital bed cured
He said that she's gone
And my heart exploded like the World Trade Center at 9/11

Few months later
I saw you in a casket
Brought a couple of my friends to know who you were
And they already know

I knew that it would be the last time seeing you
Which was the hardest part
I got comfort from my friends
Especially God

Seeing you being buried was the part where I tried to hide my tears
But I didn't cause it's your time to be with the Lord
I was the one who cried the most
And it was hard leaving you

Then I realized that life goes on
No matter how much I wanted you to stay
I'll see you again in Heaven
Rest in peace, Virginia

Stop looking for girls that would make you feel better
You always come around and call it quits if all else fails
Their hearts are fragile like a castle of glass
And it can't be fixed once it shatters

What's your intention to be in a relationship with her
To show-off your friends that she's the one
To bring her on dates
Or get married to her in the future

If you are in a relationship with her with no intentions
Why are you even in a relationship in the first place
If you are in one with no intentions
You're not making any sense at all

Advice from me to you
Be friends with her
Wait for her
And guard your heart

Why do we have be like this
I feel like something could be wrong
Could this "relationship" thing be real
Or is this just another game I pretend to play

I don't know if we really are meant to be
I just really don't know
I can't go on like this
Let me tell you why I can't be in a relationship

One, I'm not ready
Two, I'm not committed
Three, I'm not planning to marry you
Last, I don't love you

Why can't it be us
It's because we're humans looking for ways to be loved
Don't let your feelings tell you that he or she is the one
But rather let your feelings say "I will wait no matter how long it'll take"

It's that time of the year
Where we just do our daily routines
It feels different, but it doesn't feel right
Has something changed? I think not

Day and night
Work, work, work
Going home
Reading Japanese mangas and doing homework

I feel like the life I have hasn't changed one bit
It feels like I'm inside three layers of walls
Waiting to roam around "The Outside World"
As if we're gonna be learning something on the inside

I never knew we would bond instantly
From "just being friends" to "more than just friends"
Why did it even happen
I hope there'll be a time that we'll know why

I want to hold your hand so I won't let you go
I want to wrap you around my arms to keep you warm
I want to kiss you to comfort you from hurting
I want to hug you to protect you from harm

I mean what I say
I don't want to sugarcoat the reality
They may not notice what you've been through
But I do, believe me

I knew that I would say it before I wrote it
Cause I thought that we could be something
I wish that our hearts would synchronize its beat
I wish it could be us

My mind has been made up
I will wait for the day that I will see you again
You died for a reason
And you didn't die in vain

Our brotherhood will never break
From friend to brother
We've been friends from the beginning
And I will never forget you

You left me with a promise
I will make that promise happen
I will do this for you
For we are brothers

When I saw you being buried
I mourned for you
Because you mean so much to me
And I want you to know that

It's been 19 long years
Since we became friends
This year is our 20th
Although I am not with you

We had lots of fun back in the day
But that's the past
We went on our separate ways
And I know it's for the best

We are still brothers
From beginning to end
We are still brothers
No matter what happens

We may in different dimensions
But I know that you are looking at me from above
You've been looking after me since we were young
Now it's my time to become independent

I will fulfill the promise we both made
I will do everything I can to accomplish it
This poem is dedicated to you, old friend
Till we meet again

It may sound strange at first
But it doesn't when I realize it
I feel her presence when I'm alone
Though she may not be there personally

She is in my dreams and in my lone hours
She can't be seen in the dark, unless I visualize it with eyes closed
She can't be seen in the day, but rather in the night
Because she can make my sorrows and pain go away

She can brighten dark tunnels
She guides me through the fears
She heals my scars
She takes all my burdens away

It may sound weird
But I'm really feeling her presence
When I feel alone
I just think of her next to me