I love
Seeing you
Spending time with you
Being together

But I hate
The feelings that come
The ones that come
After you leave

Knowing that
We will never be together
That there's no future with us together
It kills me

So I go home each time
And cry
Because I love you

It's okay
If you want to cut me out
From your life

I meant
To tell you sooner
But couldn't find the words

You probably see us
As too close for comfort
Now

I guess it'll be better
If we go
Our separate ways

It wasn't meant
To be
Was it?

You paint your
Skin with false
Perfections

Hiding the marks
That you think
Are flaws

But I think
There's no need
To paint your skin

Because those "flaws"
Make you beautiful

Why is it
That
The more attached I get
To someone
The more it hurts

Like a dagger
That enters me when we meet
And digs its self
Deeper
The more I fall in love

Pulling it out
Would **** me to try
So I keep it in
Though the pain
Makes me cry

My reasoning screams to let go
Of this attachment
But it's just in too deep

Do I keep
It in
Or do I pull it out
And let my reasoning win

You're clingy
And so am I

We both attach ourselves to others
Unknowingly
Becoming more of a part in their lives
Than they are in ours

Getting hung up over losing friends
While just finding each other

So let's cling together
And mend those wounds from the past
And make THIS friendship
*last

Have you ever just wanted to
Throw everything you know out the window
And pack up all of your belongings And just leave

Leave your comforts behind
And your insecurities too
Start life fresh
Become a new you

Learn the ways of the world
Not just those in your hometown
Come back around to visit
Occasionally

But start a new life on your own
In a place you can thrive
Unlike here
Where all I do is hide

I think I'm gonna do it
Leave everything behind
My doubts, insecurities, loves
And take this new world head on
With an open mind

Just leave it all behind

1: My face is disproportional to the rest of me
It looks so uncomfortable sitting on my shoulders
Like it's a holder for the weight of the world

#2: My eyes show too much expression
They cannot lie
Even in moments of severe desperation
When lying that no, I am not about to cry

#3: My words are always awkward
Especially when spoken
They convey the notion of stupidity
When that's not true in reality

#4: My inability to cope with any stressful circumstance
Always retreating
Always receding
Instead of seeking out help

#5: My self hate
My inability to love who I am
The constant wish that I was someone
Who can
Love themselves with their entire heart
And not be dragged into this never ending dark
Of despising yourself
But blaming everyone else