You never stop running;
Never slow down.
You’ve learned that silence
Is the screeching of sound.
The days keep changing,
But it all bleeds to one,
As you’ve found that sleep
Only wastes time.
The stress you feel
Just means your alive.
That shortness of breath
Helps you survive.
So you move through the world
Blind to it’s beauty,
For you’ve learned things are worthless
Unless they are moving.

I can be a better woman.
I can be a better wife.
I can be a better mother.
I can have a better life.

We can pack our bags together
Move somewhere by the sea.
We can say **** the world
Because this is the best we're meant to be.

I'm not a princess darling
You don't ride a white horse.
There's no one coming to save us
You're the hero of course.

So whisper in my ear.
Please tell me one more time.
These broken dreams were never promises
And everything will be fine.

There's distance in your eyes
that wasn't there before.
There's a look that you give me
that says you aren't sure.

We keep standing at this cliff
looking over the edge.
You say you want to jump.
I say I want to fly.

I'm not the same girl...
You're not the same boy.
We live in a world of gray
A world devoid of joy.

I want to be the best version of me
...But I mostly want it for you.
I want that look in your eyes to return
...So we can be what we used to.

Let's step back from this ledge
Start over and make life new.
This cliff is too high for jumping
Let's climb down - we already flew.

I've erased a hundred poems.

I've deleted a thousand rhymes.

I'm up late again,
writing words you'll never read.

My heart captive
in the twilight of a phone screen,
but my mind finally freed.

In knots are my wires:
Tangled, blocking my arteries:
Darling to decide ask me not;
If i choose blood or the complex;

Enter my labryinth with this code;
Warn yourself, a gruesome path this is;
Circling around and around,
Never reaching the end;
Because I snapped the wire.