you were the only thing
i wanted
no
to be wanted by you was
the only thing
i wanted

do you remember
when we hung like bats from the ceiling of
the lowest room in my house
you cast shadows across my
arms
pulled the nails from
my hands
stripped the skin from my arms
plucked my bones out and
watched my veins fray like wires

it hurt
it hurt and it felt like love

and then we were separated by
seven seas by
shallow forests by
melting ice caps by
dark blueish time

i was one thousand years from
you as you snapped up anything sweet
and in reach
i was suspended in the air
with three hundred other passengers
and not a single one knew
what was running racing pulsing
through my head
i was burning but there was something cold
and wet on my face
i was cracked wide open
crumpled right outside your door

then came the truth
and other things that hurt
that's all i want to say about that

but i'll always feel like
i didn't try hard enough
that it was me not you
that itcouldhaveworkedicouldhavemadeitwork

i think maybe i didn't want to
be enough
i wanted to be yours