it's been around ten months since:

1. our last moments of conversation.
2. the last time I'd wait, eager for love clarification.
3. one last glance at the love of my life.
4. I'm sorry I haven't gotten you out of my head.
5. you smelled like cigarettes & lust.
6. true love is something I can't forget.
7. nothing compares to your eyes.
8. I certainly wish you'd take me back.
9. hoping the memories rock your bed.
10. months since I left your heart, I cry.

you consumed my brain, took a bullet for me,
I slipped into a coma of bliss & now I paid the price,
ticking times are pulling me close,
intoxicate me with your building lust,
let me be your departed, non broken-hearted,
you're the poison on my lips,
the alcohol in my glass,
got your name up in lights,
the one who sets me off.

maybe I'm out of my mind or you're lacking one,
perhaps we're both caught in the moment,
insanity brings the worst out of both of us,
let's just admit defeat & lay it to bed,
before I mess with the bullet.

I'm confident we're both lost for words.

comfort and tangle me into your web of histories,
cover me in the sheets of truth's lies & insanity.

blank kisses of no expression,
wicked thrills & lacking translation,
a smoke full of glory and passionate mist,
a half-hearted I love you with a hint of disgust.