I'm not hurt
Because of what you did

I'm hurt
Because you didn't tell me

of all the people i’ve learned to disappoint,
none have been as cruel as me.
a jury of one, gavel in hand,
i recite my faults like scripture.

i live in a house i’ve built of mirrors—
every reflection a version i loathe.
the walls don’t crack,
but i do,
trying to escape the frame.

even my shadow turns its back.

I’m lost
The cost
(Miles on the electric car)
I’m cold

It’s dark
I park
(Getting stressed)
I stop, I rest

Sat in the car
Not far
Near by
( so sat nav says)
Oh my days
But where’s
The place

I bang at a door
And ask
Great
They know
I go

And there
A beautiful place
I face
It sure was worth the wait !

I've been tickled
By reality
Laughing at
my lonesome life

Why must I be
E
N
  O
   U
     G
      H
For you?

What is
E n o u g h?

I am sorry I am
Unsatisfactory.
I will change, I swear.
Let me change.
H o w
D o   I

C
H
  A
   N
    G
     E
      ?

Help me change.
Help me be who you want me to be.
Help me be the person I am not.
Help me be the better person, the other version of me.
Help me change.
HELP
ME.

Help me, so I can be good enough for you.
Good enough for them.
Good enough for myself.