One decision
That’s all it took to disassemble everything I had planned
3 months and my life will change
New faces and scenery
A new beginning
But I’m stuck in my old ways

I’m half the person I used to be
The other given to you
A shell of the person I was
Dreams washed out to sea
Waiting for the tide to wash back in

You appear  faceless
in my every dream
following in the footsteps
I've left somberly in the snow

I envision the warmth of your smile
yet, as I turn my head to see
as I turn the page in my heart to love again
the words are left unwritten
wind sweeping away your fleeting smile
the spectral figure of you
following in the footsteps
I've left somberly in the snow

The spectral figure of you
softly fades to gray
leaving me to this labyrinth
in which I wander alone
seeking for eternity
the answers to "what went wrong?".

I lost the ability to cry
Even when I shut my self away and try
I just can’t shed a single tear
why did you leave me with all this fear?
I thought you really loved me
Boy I was mistaken
I gave you all I could give
And now you say you just can’t forgive
In the world of your misory I was a prisoner
Suffocated me so long til I got addicted to it
And now you sat me free wondering
Have He ever loved me or I’m just fooling
My self to stay at peace.

i dread the day you learn
for the first time that
you can't just love all
the darkness in me away

and no matter how much
you care i will still toss
and turn at night and scars
might still appear on my skin

i dread the day you realize
that you can't cure me
and sometimes all you can do
is stand next to me and
hold my hand through fog
pouring out of my ears so black
and thick we can't even see
each other's faces

i dread the days i can't
get out of bed
the days you want to
take me out and all
i can manage is a prettified
shell of myself

i dread the day you learn
that sometimes no matter
how hard i try i still can't
pull myself together

the day you learn that
there isn't an answer
you can give that will
save me from my fears

you aren't the first person
who has tried to love the
darkness inside away
my family and friends
have given it their all
but someday you too will learn
that if love could
cure mental illness
the world would be
a much better place