Wanted to stay
But I walked away
Not because I didn't care
Nor that I didn't want to share
I gave all I could
Probably more than I should
Open myself and held nothing back
Raised you up, confidence you wouldn't lack
Still it wasn't mine to shine
Said it was sweeter than wine
But for every smile, there was also pain
Confusion and what you felt was sin
So though it broke my heart
and you warn me from the start
I left to save your light
But you'll never leave me, try what I might
Cause your love left a mark
And walking away is hard

Warrior and Poet

When you have a warriors might
But have a poets light
Your life is eternal struggle
Most of the time your befuddled

To be hard and soft
dream of love and loss
breath fire and spite
Leads to restless nights

To relish in the blood you spill
Charge up every hill
Remorse the feelings you hide
Pain you feel deep inside

The Warrior and the Poet
Inside him, you wouldn't know it

They weigh me down
I've never shown it all
Let their words leave me bound
Took in the pain and built a wall

Your a man, dont show tears
Your a Marine, show no fear
Your a father, not allowed to fail
Your a worker, dont matter if it's hell

I listened to every word ,
though I was never heard
Stone by pain I picked them up
Every day I load them and began my ****

Till I couldn't walk or take anymore
Thought I would just crumble
Myself I had to restore
All of my soul and heart was a jumble

I saved them all, except myself
All it cost was my mental health
But I am letting this load go
A new path, that I chose

What if ...?
Two simple words
That fill me with dread
The manifestation of my fears
And the things I did

The twist and turns I chose
Were they the correct choice, who knows
But part me will always wonder
Loves and loss, high and lows to ponder

Did she feel the same way
Was it true love and I walked away
Did I let my fears hold me at bay
Maybe that path lead to better days

Roads that lead to many paths
We never know if it's to good or bad
If they'll leave us happy or sad
The one thing I do know about them
Is "what if's" can be forgotten

Where do you go
Your in my arms
Then they're empty

You come closer
I feel your warmth
Next i'm cold and alone

Drowning deep in your eyes
Then they become still pools
There meaning lost to me

Your body responds
But your soul is gone
I want the warmth the sun
you live in the shadows
and just graze the light

one day you feel the sun
and learn not to run
to open to the world
what i behold

They've always been there
Waiting for the right wind
A warm one to care me somewhere
My strong one with a good headwind
The true wind to glide into the heavens
Lept and fallen when I thought it beckon
But it wasn't my wind
My wings scared and battered
Like my heart tattered
But one day they will soar
And I'll be earth bound no more

So much of her is inside
The trueself we hide
A heart might break
Our soul to fragile to take

There is lock, but no key
Emotions we will never see
If hidden they remain
Your life stays the same

Along comes a ray
To light the way
Its carress tender and warm
The darkness is transformed

It shows you the key
All along it was in me
The choice is now mine
To let all my beauty shine

Should i let it out
It safety i doubt
Inside it will wither and die
Outside it glory will blind

Love and life is a choice
They are given equal a voice
Hearts should be unbound
So they may leave the ground

The words burn in me
I feel each syllable
As I write them down
My blood stains the page
For what is it I write
If not my fears, doubts, and dreams
The highs of love,
And lows of heart aches
Days I stood in the sun
And ones where there was none
You read them and embrace the poem
Not knowing that it's my soul I'm showing.
The next time you read one
Wipe the page see if it runs red
Or you learn what's in my head

As I read the words
They leap off the page
Like arrows that pierce my essence
Ablaze and scorching hot

Each delivers its passion. Heartache and truth
Exposing not only theirs but mine
They spark my writer's soul
Causing me to bleed on to the page

I fill my quiver sharpening every tip
Hoping to do the same
Aiming for their heart and soul
So they'll feel my fire and it will ignite theirs

And as we both bleed
The words flow and we are spent
We take solace in the page
In the knowledge that it shows
Us vulnerable, exposed and unafraid