It's around 3am
And no one's at the house
I feel like abusing like I have been doing in the past
I couldn't wait no longer and I put on my mask
And went on my way to find that dust
That had gave me joy for so long
Oh, I'm sure by now, you know what I'm talking about?
And when I'm on it, you are all I think about
Maybe when you are ready, I'll be too
Till then I'll be lost somewhere, somewhere in my mind
Thinking about our perfect time

I don't know if I should ask you or not?
Don't know whether I'm being selfish or not?
Honestly, the truth is, you've become my necessity
You are necessary to get back my sanity
So, tell me if I'm wrong when I keep sending you those songs, when it's half past one
Maybe you know everything and you pretend
And just wait for the night to end
And I know you are not to blame
It's just that we are stuck in a deadend
Cause you are too afraid to depend
And it Seems to me loneliness is going to be here longer than expected
And I have to keep shining my teeth through meaningless..

I wished for you to be near
And now that you are here
It seems like you're even further
Further than we've been
Now I'm struggling to get the words out
Don't you fear, my dear
I've been through this before
Became an expert at hiding what I feel, when I was a kid.
You won't realize a thing
Life will go on like this
And soon you won't turn back to see
What it could have been
Maybe being together isn't for us
But if I ever get to escape my self-built cage
I will surely tell you my tale
Maybe then we might prevail
Maybe then we might prevail..

The lights started to flicker
And the sound of silence got deeper
I sat in the corner and cried out in despair
But my voice wasn't sharp enough to pierce through the silenece,
I wasn't man enough to admit it back then
But the truth was that just like everybody else
I was trying to fix myself,
But in the end it was too hard too choose
And I chose the road which many youths often takes

Fought my battles with pills & bottles
And I know very soon this light will disappear
And I'll fade away in darkness
But if I'm being completely honest
There's still a part in me that wants to to burn out
Instead of fading away in the background

And I want to ask for help but I'm too afraid to tell
And this fear is keeping me locked up in this cage called mental health