He taught me to run
To disguise the most intimate parts of myself
To only love myself

You taught me to stay
To expose the most intimate parts of myself
To maybe love another

But now you and him are more similar than you know
Now I can stay
Now I can give the most intimate parts of myself
Now I can love another and myself

But it is not him,
And now it is not you
So now I say thank you and goodbye
Simultaneously

I dream of you.

I dream of you in my sleep
You are next to me
Holding me while we laugh under the sheets that morphed us
Your gentle touch that sends shockwaves through my body
You look at me with your sweet eyes;
which hold an entire world of innocence and naivety

I dream of you in the day
I see us in the boy and girl walking hand in hand along the river;
In the airplanes that we dreamed of taking together
And most of all in the garden that became our peace

I dream of you in the morn
When my eyes first open and anticipate you next to me
Your lips softly touching mine as you whisper
Good morning, my love
Before our morning tea and pastries

But then I awaken.
You are not here.
It was all but just a dream,
My love

You're going to come back once I am no longer there, aren't you?