Some days I'm happier,
Some days I'm sad,
But in the end, I'm all I have.

Some days I'm up
Some days I'm down
And when the sun is up, I go around.

I stroll and stroll, to find a fall
To find a mountain so tall and all.

What is to be a woman
What is to be a man,
Could I find the answer, Hidden inside the sand?

Perhaps inside the mountain
Where my heart will lead
Perhaps inside a fountain
Water so powerful and pure indeed.

May my sadness stay for an hour
May my sadness come and go
May all my mistakes be delivered
So that I too I can let go.

And with this short madness of mine I finally finish
I didn't expect this to be so long, left nothing to diminish.

Goodnight to you goodnight to all
I promise you everything will find its place once and for all.

I'm tired I really am
No love for me in hand

I touch my self to fill the void
Even if deep down I am destroyed

I can't fix what's left of me
And I'm down on one knee

The other can't bend is broken
Actually all of me is, broken

I'm just 22! Can you believe it?
Is pain less painful when older?

Am I bringing myself this stupid pain
Am I complaining for no reason in vain?

Does anybody hear me, I cry for help
Alone, alone, alone, I' m angry! Help

I'm having a panic attack every once is a while
And right now is one of those days, again I go wild

I'm writting a poem again here I am
laying on the bed now, laptop in my hand
I wanted to say thank you for all, once again
And I wanted to say I'm blessed yes, again and again

So many things have happend so fast So quick
But who should I thank, will you say "pentru nimic"?
From all the good days which one should I pick?
Until tomorrow comes, tonight will be quiet- tick

I have a part in me that's worried and scared
A part that's there and does go no where
A small piece laying within alone, spared
Its like my mind always says, "be prepaired"

But the good in the world doesn't let me stand behind
The good in us is so beautiful, im not blind
I know we can be better together combined
And our future awaits for us aligned.

I feel love in different ways than you do
And if your hands don't touch me, then i can't touch you

I need love deeper than what i tell and show
And when we're together i swear that i want more

I wish love cause i dont have someone else
They don't touch i cant i dont let my friends

When will this need of me stop?
I feel so lonely on skin body heart top

My mouth is sealed my eyes just stare
Alone i hold my hands what can i bare?

I'm tired and i want to cry so often all the time
But is it your fault or do i just complain and whine?

I'm tired really, a lot i want to release
And no matter what i do, i cant find inner peace.

I wish you were right and the word love was enough
I'm sorry, I am , i want so scream, this poem is so rough

I thought writting this will make me feel better already
But it didn't I swear I'm just staring at my screen angry and unsteady

I don't think I'm ever finding my wish
I just want to crawl in my chest and die, *******