there is so much i want to say
so many questions i would like to ask

it hasn’t been long since we talked
thought i still want to know how you are

i know some awkward things happened
and i don’t know how to label us

but did you keep the letters
or all those little things

i could see why you wouldn’t have
it’s okay if you didn’t

i know you’re probably confused and whatnot
and this might not help anything

but i just want you to know that i miss you
and i think about you all the time

and even though we were complete opposites
we got along so well and shared many laughs

i can’t fit the other 536374848 things
i want to tell you within this poem

but i hope we can become friends again
and maybe soon it feel regular?

When it comes to you
I am at a loss for words
so my heart beats in symphonies
my mind will never compose

I don’t want to shed another tear,
I don’t want to burn my precious skin.
I don’t want my heart to ache another second knowing that I’ll never be good enough for you
I don’t want to be emotionally numb
I don’t want to spend another minute hating myself.
I don’t want to breakdown the thought of gaining a single pound.
I don't want to avoid human contact because of the thought that they will see me how I see myself.
I don’t want to love the feeling of hunger.
I don’t want to tear myself into pieces
I don’t want to see the beauty in the sick
I don’t want to weigh myself every 10 minutes
I don’t want to spend 3 hours pacing around my backyard
I don’t want to live in this constant l nightmare
I just want to be happy.
I want to be good enough.
I was to change for the better,
But it's harder than you think.