I been lied to by men
I been chated on by men
I been treated like crap by people
I been in love
I been in places no one wants to go
I been called names
I been in fights
I been beaten
I been almost *****
I been drunk
I been high
I been happy
I been sad  
I been close to people who walked away
I been through hell and still act like stuff dont faze me .

I m not normal so what
I am crazy so what
I Am fat so what
I'm pretty so what
I Am bored so what
I Am a bit**h so what
I hate winter so what
I love summer so what
I'm 36 so what
I Am a woman so what
I'm weird so what
I swear a lot so what
I love pink so what
I have few friends so what
I love night so what
I love horror so what
i have depressed so what
I get lonely so what
Ism poor so what
I'm lazy some time so what

brown eyes  the look you love
Fair skin  tan colour
Long hair  beautiful
Crazy  attitude
Loveable that what i do
Body basic on you
Mouth what i say
lips  you wanna kiss

The wind blowing is you saying i'm here
The rain is you crying
The sun shining is you saying I am happy
The clouds is you saying I m sad
The flower is you saying i miss you
The birds is you saying hi
The butterflies is you saying I m always here
The trees is you saying you are never alone
The feather is you saying  I was here

A  kiss can say so much
A kiss can  say i love you
A kiss can say i get lost when your around
A kiss  can say i am here
A kiss can say time to move on

K  is for kind soul
I is for innersoul
S is for soul looking for another soul
S is for seeking words to say

So tired of thinking i
m not good enough
So tired of thing im better off somewhere else
so tired of thinking people will never understand me
So tired of being used
So tired of wanting to be expected
but as i say thing that girl got tired and she became something she do not think would happen she became a warrior

If heaven had a place where i could go to visit you i would go in heartbeat
just to hold you again
to talk to you again
to kiss you again
to hug you again
to say i love you again
so i'll just sit here staring up at the sky knowing that  one day i'll see you again.

ONE YEAR

One year with out your face
One year with out for laugh
One year with out your smile
One year with out your heart
One year with out your voice
One year with out your love
One year with out holding you
One year with out talking to you
One year with out your hug
One year with out your kiss
One year with out you
One year with out with me saying I love you to
One year with out growing old with you
If I could be with you I would
If god gave me one hr with you now I would tell you
How much i miss you
How much i love you
How much I think about you
How much I wish I went with you
How much I need you
But I know You  are looking after me and that will have to do
One year .

Tina lombardo

Lance Peter Murray wrote this poem for me he passed away last year oct 9 will be one year since hes been gone
September 5, 2017 ·
every day that passes...
every second...
every minute...
every moment...
no matter how green the grass is...
or how much snow passes...

You are alive when I am awake...
I can't remember the last night that you were not in my dreams....
You are everything to me.

Thank you for your love...
mine for you is everlasting

YOU DON'T KNOW ME
You don't know the things I know
You don't know the way I think
You don't know the way I feel
You don't know how I deal
You don't know how I care
You don't know how I swear
You don't know how I love
You don't know how I feel
You don't know how I talk
You don't know how I walk
You don't know the pain I feel
You don't know cause you don't care
You don't know how I trust
You don't know how I burst into tears
You don't know I fight to stay a live
You don't know that's is why i'm me and you are you.

Tina lombardo