I don’t want to shed another tear, I don’t want to burn my precious skin. I don’t want my heart to ache another second knowing that I’ll never be good enough for you I don’t want to be emotionally numb I don’t want to spend another minute hating myself. I don’t want to breakdown the thought of gaining a single pound. I don't want to avoid human contact because of the thought that they will see me how I see myself. I don’t want to love the feeling of hunger. I don’t want to tear myself into pieces I don’t want to see the beauty in the sick I don’t want to weigh myself every 10 minutes I don’t want to spend 3 hours pacing around my backyard I don’t want to live in this constant l nightmare I just want to be happy. I want to be good enough. I was to change for the better, But it's harder than you think.
I hate it when ppl say stuff like "go out and talk to ppl. it'll build confidence." you see, for a normal person, that would help. but for me, it only makes things worse bc I find new things that they will judge me for, which makes me feel worse and making me less confident. sorry aboutthe rant