I come to you
With nothing

And I leave
with exactly the same

My head is heavy
Falling back into
the dark place
that I hoped
would never exist again

But it's always been there
A home from home
Offering a warm embrace
A place that welcomes
with no judgement

A place with no ending
no starting point
No acceptance of mistakes
That are created in this journey

No paths visible
No light that guides
the way
An eternal nothingness
behind closed eyes
There is no escape

No calls reach out
No voice can reach in
no hands to take hold
Not even to push away

No expectations
to be nothing more than yourself
No confusion

So I lean back further
Falling freely
Hoping the ground doesn't take long
To rise up
take the weight on all sides
I don't want to fall
anymore

How do I control these urges
Of wanting you
To feel you
Need you
To make you need me

To quench the inner thirst that I drown in every day
When you're not here

Dripping down and slicing through my soul
How I yearn for you

An ache so intense
I can't fulfil by myself
No matter how many times I try
My imagination wanders
But it's not the same

Only you can heal this
Make this ache recede
You can heal
The hurt
I feel