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Oct 2018 · 182
Might as well
Becca Oct 2018
I think I take you for granted
Can't stop complaining
Wish I could shut my mouth

How do you keep coming back
I would just leave
I'm not worth it I promise

I won't live long anyways
I can feel it down to my bones
Just go already

Let me suffer in my head
You don't have too
Live better than me
Sep 2018 · 132
Distant
Becca Sep 2018
I feel distant from you tonight
Why can't you see that
Why didn't you fight
I needed your attention
Instead you fell asleep
That kills me inside is what I forgot to mention
When I need you the most
You close your eyes
Goodnight Austin
I think I'll close mine now too
Sep 2018 · 368
Does he know
Becca Sep 2018
Does he know how strongly I feel about him
That I would cut away at my entire body if that meant he could go on even without me
I couldn't possibly live in a world in which he stopped breathing
I mean that with no exaggeration
My last life lives through him
I must be the one to go first
Even if that meant I had to give away every part of me to keep him breathing
I ache to hear that snore
I crave to listen to his heart beat
His warm skin
To see every perfect detail of his face
I live for it all
Aug 2018 · 128
Untitled
Becca Aug 2018
I dont wanna cry for help
Calling it depression is too cliche
Everyone's doing it
But I refuse to use it
He gets frustrated when I dont give an answer
I don't even know the answer
Its eating me from the inside out
Nothing in particular
But enough to break me
Jul 2018 · 112
Untitled
Becca Jul 2018
What if one day it's you
What if even saying or typing those words make it more likely to happen
What should I do

They say live like it's your last
So how can I think of anything else
Because of what's in my past

I try to cherish every moment
But at some point I have to stop and cherish another person
What if that's when you'll be chosen

I can't stop it from coming
Please. Help.
I hope I'm gone before your Angel's start humming
Jun 2018 · 238
Inevitable
Becca Jun 2018
You lay there sleeping as I listen to your heart beat
I want to give you the world
But mine is shattering beneath me
How do I explain it
You'll never understand what I'm saying
But my heart has taken many, many hits
I weep when I'm alone
No one I can rely on very long
Slowly.. I'm turning to stone
I blame you for everything
Tell you to take responsibility
But I'm really talking to my own insecurities
What if you die?
I'd **** myself
One more tug and I'll start to fly
The inevitable runs my life.

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