please be gentle with yourself

you are doing your best

i am proud of you for waking up this morning

do you know what hurts?
watching someone who you thought was your forever
spend his forever with someone else

i had a dream
the details are foggy
all i remember is a man coming close to me and me being terrified and screaming for him to stay away from me and the people around me not understanding why i was scared

i'm always scared

No one has ever fought for me.
That wound is so deep
it scares me.
Maybe that’s why I push people away.
To find out who will come back.

At least a quarter million words in english
And not one describes me