Skin pale as first snow fall.
You lay silent.
Your eyes wide open but see nothing.
The line has been crossed.
Turning back is not an option.
Arms flail while cold steel is passed hand in hand.
So much noise, but you hear nothing.
You danced and danced, but the song is about to be over.
You played with the fun demons and lost.
The ride is never free, you will pay dearly.
You will know nothing for this is the end.
But they will all know you.
The real you.

I am going to take my life.
Adulthood and being a decent human has always been my strife.
I hurt myself, my family, and I will hurt you.
I am full of lies, nothing that I say is true.
If you know me, then there is no debate.
Most everything about me, you will learn to hate.
I hurt, sneak, cheat, and lie.
It might be best that I die.
I should probably just do some a favor.
In the choice to take my life, I will not waver.
You will only heal from my short passing.
The thought of taking my life, has only been amassing.
You gave me a chance that was taken advantage of.
Where I am headed, is not below or above.
I could not give you my all or make you my wife,
"I am going" has progressed to I have taken my life.

Eyes that can pierce to your soul.
Lips that can heal with the lightest touch.
Smile that can warm the coldest thoughts.
Can I have you?
Voice calming like ripples in a still lake.
You carry yourself with pride and vigor.
Your touch can make the strongest man weak.
Can I have you?
Your shining aura pushes the darkest away.
Your scent is intoxicating like a fine wine.
You approach slowly with grace and beauty.
Can I have you?
You start to speak, yet words are not heard.
The distraction of your being is like a nuclear bomb.
Only the crave for you is in thought.
Can I have you?
Tall, dark, and handsome approaches.
A large figure, standing out with pride and confidence.
He greets you with a smile and a kiss as I start to realize.
I can't have you.