you have moments, where you can’t imagine a future?
you’re lying there, staring at the
same walls,
same ceilings,
same words,

Same life passing by.
with nothing but the same old feelings-of
empty and pale,
like there’s no reason to love and be loved.
when you can’t even do enough to fail.
the future is bright as advertised, but i don’t want to be in it,

can’t imagine myself in it.
where you just want to stop and vanish.
everything.
and just sit there for a while.

maybe not love, as that’s too permanent,
but something close to it.
when you can feel the rope around your neck,
the razor on your wrist,
the way the pills taste.

you can imagine it, and you aren’t sure if it’s what you want,
or just the feelings you imagine it will give you,

I know you said to move on.
I tried to be fine with wading this weather,
But the love in my heart still tells me it's wrong.

Now, I'm not saying I'm resentful,
But you did treat me like I was special.
Lately has been so uneventful.
And I'm starting to think this isn't a game...

I get a little jealous when you look at other girls.
I know we're not together, but... You are my whole world.

I get a little jealous when you talk about them too.
It's because we're not together, but...
You told me that you liked me... You told me that you do.
That i was your moon at night.
I was a sunshine that could not fade away.

Now, I'm not trying to be weird, but call me, I'd give you my time.
Actually, I will give you everything,
Because I just want you to be mine and mine alone.
You are not a trophy or prize to be won.

When I got too lonely, I'd just stare at your photos,
Soundless replacements for you, who knows?

I let different girl's touch me.
Because I wanted to know and feel.
Even for a second
What it felt like to be loved.
Even if that love was cheap.
And it tasted like ***
Like the punchline to a joke.
I never got it because it was me facing the mirror.

I let different girls have different parts of me.
Parts that they didn't deserve.
But I offered up willingly, because I couldn't give anything else,

Because you broke me,
And I was looking for different fingers
To place different pieces and hoping.
That the outcome would be a masterpiece.
That maybe one of them would find a way.
To cover up the handprints you left all over me.

I let different girls touch me because I had to prove to myself.
that you wouldn't be the only one.
That the scars that mark my body wouldn't define my worth to be loved.
I am still not entirely sure that you aren't the only one.
Who could ever touch me.

I let different girls touch me because that is all I have been taught.
To be a joke,
To be silent,
To be ready to give until you have nothing left.
- I am hoping one of them will show me.
But they keep leaving me. and I am to scared to offer up anything more. than my body to get them to stay and feel the vibes that made my spinal cord move.

That made me overcome winter and loneliness.
Showed me that waking up next to you was the only glow one should have.
I loved more than you,
Sadly i got broken like a piece of bread.
I have turned into a shadow of a man waking to his grave.
Self love has disappeared from inch of my soul. 🌺🔥🌺🔥🌺🔥🌹🔥🌹

We are in the end of the line.
Talking a while.
Dont let me go.
When you are the only one.

Baby i can be your only prize.
Even if a fall back.
You always believed i tried.
She keeps me from holding her hands.
You can light it up.
You could be a symphony, so that i can learn to play it.
You could be able to utter the words i love you.

Life its not like that.
Obstacles are everywhere.
She took my only heart i cant return it back.
I just lie always.

& with the moon’s bedazzled touch
A special magic is intricately spun

Captures soft pastels of pink, orange & blue
Or vivid hues of dramatic imagery
To bring to life the portrait presented to you

Wretchedly bleeds in coal-black bouts of despair
Spilling ink from the pit of their soul
Each heart wrenching limn is their sorrow stripped bare

Hotly simmers in desire-infused maroons
That swelter frenzied steam
Arousing incandescent passion-monsoons.

🌹🌹🌹
When i told you it was over?
My honey i have lied.
I have been running from my visible shadow.
I am sinking ship that burning.

I'll leave an autograph on my chest.
How i am supposed to love you?
When i cant stand tje man i am.
It does not matter who you meet on the way.

Believe in me.
The heart is the best photographer.
But i don't forget what you felt next to me.
With a feeling in the soul of emptiness.
Teach me to live as you do.

Taught me to be different.
From a fragile ego man.
So as not to feel the pain.
So that i forget about all my worries.
To think of only how adorable and wonderful you are.

Could this be too emotional for you?
I want you to recognize me and love me.

☄☄

If my heart was a candle.
It could have melted long ago.
I will have died from tje agony that i face every day.

You felt like you deserved to prayed and lived on.
You will admire without sorrow in your heart.
You couldn't be satisfied with yourself by another.
You turned too cold for me.

Its seems like a painful silence without you.
Imagining seconds passing by separately within my thoughts.
Smiles couldn't win your heart.
Love couldn't change you.

At times i think of becoming an athlete
So that you can be my race and i can win you over.
Thought of becoming an musician so that the sweet melodies from my singing.
You are in my every thought.

How wonderful you are to be the one who beats outside my aorta.
I was wondering if i can sleep over your heart.
When you smiled in the middle of the kiss.
I knew you were after my heart.

I could love the distance between us.
You should take a step closer to my fragile life.
How can you still find me attractive even though i am not worthy of it?
I fell in love with your soul and mind.
Honey its times less.
It can't run out of time
😊😊😊😊🌹🌹

The love i have inside me for you is an overdose of drugs.
Trying to take you slow.
Under the bed sheets.
Unprotected from it.
So weak i cannot resist the temptation.

The tingles and the chills i am getting.
That sensational feeling running through my spinal cord.
The reason to **** just awoken like lust.
To eat the forbidden fruit.

As we burn in eternal fire of passion.
Connection of the after death.
It cannot be contained.
What i have for you.
As our minds synchronized in a sweet classic melody.

Nothing can beat that rhythm of our song.
Fighting the corresponding temperatures of temptation.
You turned out to be ny everyday paranoid.
The fear of someone snatching you from my arms.

I get shy when i see you.
The love and passion i have for you is an overdose.
Of getting what i want from you.
In my dreams i hear your name calling.
Soberly nobody can predict my thoughts.
That run deep like a lake of fire.

Wondering if i am all alone in this.
Or your heart is feeling the same about me.
Honey i am living with this lingering thoughts every day and night.
I mourn your voice when you are not around.
Orchestrating our perfect wedding in my mind.
Hope you can make it to the alter in time.

Express the same feelings to the entire world thwt i am yours.
Cause i can see us colliding in eternity of love.

This is not an act from my side but an overwhelming overdose that cant be controlled.
I am masquerading your attire with me next to your arms.
So much i wanna say to you.
But too much drinking of five roses make me turn my tail and vanish in space.
Cause you are my own drug overdose that makes me woke up each day.
Without you i am a shadow lost in tombstone.
You my reason for breathing.
My soul snatcher.
My reflection mirror.
My disease that does not need cure.
By most of all my smiles bringer.
My sun glower.🔥🌹🔥🌹

Lets walk the beaches of Caribbean holding hands.
Watch beautiful sunsets together.
Explore the seven wonders of the world.
As we also explore each other minds.

🌹🌹🌹🌹

Maybe i will not become an ideal partner.
I will not be a faithful lap-dog at your feet.
I will not be able to faithful look into your eyes and live alone with you.
I will never take my palm from yours.
When it gets hard for you.
I will never turn my back on your sincere sadness.
I won't step on your feelings with a thin heel.
I just don't know how to do that...

Do not hide your hands this morning.
Let them travel through my body.
Give them the opportunity to think about me. Feel and touch me.
I want to imagine not only about your hands.
But your entire body.
Unless of course you allow me ti experience it.

My lips are made to be kissed.
I want to lay you quietly in bed.
I don't hope you will not sleep.
I dream about how my tongue touches every centimeter of your body.

Strange times.
Phones without buttons.
Doors without handles..
People without brains...
Attitude without feelings.
And i am like a fool without you..

Love can change a person beyond recognition.
We are a bridge through eternity.
Rising above the sea of time.
Testing ourselves again and again.
Learning to crawl for the sake of love

Turning over a new leaf.
You were cooling over crazy stuff.
You deceived me with a lying life.
You thought you were smart but got caught in the act.

I saw you with my own two eyes.
With another man in my own bed.
Had forgotten that while you lied in in my bed with me.
You shared my name and emotions in that bed.
How can I ever possibly trust you again.

While I poured my heart and inner most thoughts to you.
You were gazing in my eyes and never blinked not once.. When I asked you point blank you were cheating?
Now you come over with those crocodile tears.
They could not help or save you with anything.

So this words will never be repeated again.
Please back your bags and leave my house.
Don't ever set a foot nearby here letalone greet me in the streets.
You viper of a lustful woman who can't control yourself.
Why did you pledge love if you knew you did not have it in you.
So goodbye for being unfaithful and true to me.

Mas

Locks are never made without matching keys?
Luckily for me you came.
You came in this world with a key that unlocks my heart.
You are the missing piece in the puzzle.
You are the master piece that unlocks the treasure.
Which is my only fragile hearts.🌺🌹🔥

I miss your eyes
Which look at me with tenderness.
I miss your hands.
Which make me feel protected.
I Miss your kiss.
Which kiss so sweet and gently.
I Miss your laughter.
When you do your face glow with beauty and gentleness.
I miss your hugs.
When embraced in them I feel warmth and love.🔥🔥🔥🌹🌹🌹

You're a huge distraction.
I've not gotten anything done.
I've been thinking of you so much.

Let us sin with you and run away in a dream.
To a planet of intimate pleasures.
So that this sin can be sophisticated!!

Love me passionately and dearly.
You can also carelessly.
I fly away with dreams into the clouds.

You are my sweet dream in the night.
I give you the keys from my heart.
My name is written in your heart.
Thats a sign for you to follow.

Talk to me like a child.
I can cry so much when a see a street kitten.
You have magical hands.
That works miracles.

Inspiring peace.
I am stuck in a a cloud of feelings and i can't get them out there.
I am afraid of dependency of love 🌹🌹

Running after memories.

What is so special about this?
I mean writing poetry?
Every day sending it to different strangers.
All over the globe and to unknown readers.

The truth is that I met someone on that day.
That is why I write every day of my life.
To seek refuge and grace at the same.
Pardon for every day mistakes.

To ask for forgiveness.
When I chose my career over our relationship.
Apologies for each daily mistakes that could be taken back.
To say sorry when I hurt her and did have the guts to own up to the problem.
Most of all to ask forgiveness when I brought woman to her house for my own entertainment.

To beg mercy when she was praying for my protection and safety in was busy lying with another woman.
To plead for a second chance for my in maturity.
I want to say sorry when I forgot to tell her how much I loved her....
Assuming me that she will remain with me for eternity.
But I was totally wrong.
When she passed away in lost all that time.

That why wise people usually say the time is now!
I'f you want to love do it now!
If you want forgiveness ask it now!
If you want a relationship go for it now!
Or else you will sing "in my time" and find your self regretting you missed chances.
To all you people out there in a relationship, call or send a message to your partner tell her how much you love them.
To all of you wanting to have someone in your love pray about it and have patience about it.
You don't want to rush into something  after getting married.
Then true love knocks at your door.

Cause there is no love that begins after marriage.
Love starts right now and it never ends.
When last did you utter the words 'I love you'
Cause all I have now is memories.
Running after them like an antlete.

We felt in love when we we're kids.
Our bond was unbreakable.
The feelings we had was out if these world.
But strangely we grew up apart.

The love kept growing stronger.
The bliss kept blossoming.
The fire made the passion to keep burning.
I could believe you waited for me.

Your mother request ed too much bridal price.
She had a stronger influence on you.
She whispered lies in your ears.
You were torn between me and her.
Eventually you choose her over me.

Now that you are getting married.
To the person you have zero love for him.
I lead you to your alter holding your hands.
Love will make you do strange things.
The love i had for you wanted to celebrate with you.
Although I died inside while I lead you to your groom.

I could just let you go.
Cause my feelings for you never perished.
The keep burning even now.
I wish I had a knife that can switch off what I feel for you.

I am stuck to move on and start a new life as well.
It's you that I only see.
I need your love to move on.
They say time is a healer of pain but it could not bring you back.
The fastest way to **** a person other than a bullet is to fall in love.
And have the one you put your hope, feelings and dreams to piece it and distribute to the entire world.

I love you and I gave you away to your new husband.
I was honoring your wishes.
The uniqueness of love us that the is no escaping it.
The only way is to go the dam and drown there by myself.
You left my heart bleeding on the ground.