Because of you
i am worse
i'm someone i would have never thought i could
become on my own
You made me become the person i am today
and that is not something to me proud of.
At the beginning, i wanted this writing to be a poem
but i have to write it out as a story.
You can trust someone with your all. You can sacrifice everything
for someone. At the end, they forget everything you did and were willing to do. They turn your actions, into something people don't like. They try to convince everyone else, an idea that is completely different. They don't realize the damage they do to your soul.
In your head, you keep recalling all the things you guys did. You recall the little things you guys used to do. You remember the songs you guys sang in the car. You remember all the little stuff. Because he is the one who in fact left. You tried to be his friend. You tried your best to keep in contact.
In his mind. You weren't worth it. He hangs with other girls. He starts to assume that it is okay to move on. And then again, he forgets. He forgets everything that you did for him. You come into tears, and you drown into your soul while being against the wall. The wall makes you think there is someone holding you while your tearing apart, crying about the person you went to when your where spilling your tears off.
When your mind is wondering off, it takes a little peak back. It wonders, and it goes into the little section that says "broken". It reads a little, and on its own, it starts inundating.
You find yourself in this position, where you don't know what to do. You don't know how to move on. You don't know if moving on to someone else is the best action. Even if he starts being interested in someone else. You are still there. Stuck. Debating on whether to stop, or finding a way to move on. He made you worse, than you were already. And you could never go back. Not in the same way.