Now I lay me down, in bedlam—
nighttime stories never end well—
and I can’t think to breathe,
the sweat is soaking through the sheets.

Streetlamp lights send shadows skittering
wild and wicked through the blinds; they
cast themselves like hieroglyphics
upon my walls: (is this a sign?)

But no, it’s just a fever dream,
I’ve seen these lights a hundred times, and
I’m always contemplating life:
(a radar blip; a satellite!)

On nights like these,
when, wide awake, I
hysterically search for some escape—
(the heat in here is overwhelming!)
–and as I feel my center slipping,
I look to you; your picture framed.

Grounded in an iris, carved—
or crystallized—out of ice,
(my favorite way to meet destruction
is to be frozen when it starts).

But Frost was right, in his desire—
(you know, the world will end in fire)—
and so I will not sleep for days,
as hidden flames rise ever higher.

I peruse your poems
and feel your love,
It awakens me.
I peruse your letters
and feel your hurts,
They shock me!

I peruse your heart
and sense your feelings,
They make me weak!
I peruse your mind
and find your emotions,
They turn me back.

I peruse your habit
and realize your treats,
They glamor me.
I peruse your works
and observe your arts,
They satisfy me.

I peruse your eyes
and see your kindness,
They're cool like the rain.
I peruse your smile
and see your pleasure,
They melt every chain.

I peruse your face
and enjoy your looks,
They make me wonder.
I peruse your beauties
and reverse like books,
They make me a writer.

I peruse your voice
and enjoy your melodies,
They call me silent.
I peruse your shyness
and touch your body
They call me to be silent.

Truly, your love is my drug
Your hurts are my tears,
Your happiness is my life,
So, I need you, sweetheart!

I am only one, just alone
I have no family, no one
I have no work, no house
I have no kids, no spouse
I have had everything but all are gone!

I am only one and just alone
I have no friends, not even one
I have no skies, no lands
I have no help, no hands
I have had everything but all are gone!

I am only one and just alone
I have no relatives, no one
I have no hopes, no dreams
I have no oceans, no breams
I have had everything but all are gone!

I am only one and just alone
I have no companies, not even one
I have no place, no address
I have no peace, no happiness
I have had everything but all are gone!

I am only one and just alone
I have no neighbors, not even one
I have no goals, no desires
I have no food, no dress
I have had everything but all are gone!

I am only one, just alone
I have no helpers, not even one
I have no powers, no ideas
I have no voice, no eyes
I have had everything but all are gone!

I am only one, just alone
I have no supporters, not even one
I have no health, no frontage
I have no field, no stage
I have had everything but all are gone!

I am only one, just alone
I have no partners, not even one
I have no sun, no morning
I have no moon, no lighting
I have had everything but all are gone!

I have had everything but all are gone!
Where is my wealth, where is my house
Where are my children, where is my spouse
Where is my love, where is my regime
Nothing is left without the retirement home!
Everything I need to close, I evoke everyone!