i'm alive but im not here, not really
im stuck in a labyrinth of drowning sadness
craving to take the sharpest of blades
to cut out the monster living within me
i can hear it scraping away at my insides
and rotting my flesh back to front
i know you tied me together
but you forgot to do a double knot
the scars holding me together are snapping
and all the sickness is pouring out
and burning its way through the concrete

is there an ax to eliminate the memories?
a chainsaw to take the poison from my mind?
anything, just to get rid of these thoughts,
these deafening whispers in my mind

can i **** myself here, or should i do it outside,
so the mess on the carpet doesn't upset you?