I miss you
Your touch
The way your thumb rubs against mine when we hold hands
The way you hold my waist when we kiss
The way you hold me when we hug
I miss your voice
The way you sing to me my favourite songs
The way you say my name
The way you mock me when I do something weird
I miss you
The way you smile when I say certain things
The way you kiss me multiple times in a row
The way you stare at me with your nice eyes.
I miss you
When you hang up the phone
When you walk out the door
And even when you say goodnight
I miss you
-te

I just miss the old days.
Where there was no worries
when I didn't feel like this
suffocated.
by family
by friends
by school
by my future
what if I don't want a future
what if the only reason I'm staying right now is because people need me
my sister especially
she needs me here to help her through her troubles
I wonder what she's going to be like when she's my age
I really hope she doesn't turn out like me.
I hope she ends up being happy..
-te

I sit here in the dark
forcing my eyes to fix images
images in the darkness
all I see is the monsters
that keep destroying me
why is it so hard to get rid of them
I'm alone
in the dark
tears streaming down my face
the monsters are so cruel
saying remarks like
"you are so ugly, you fat troll"
"just continue pressing that blade against your skin"
"no one wants you here"
its so hard to tune them out when I know it's all true
I can't wait until I'm dead
so my only peaceful place isn't just my bed
I need to get away from this fast
because I really don't know how much longer I can last
-te

I could stare at you all day
Just watching your ****** expressions
The way you get so into what you are doing
The way your eyebrows  scrunch up when you are confused
The way you lick your lips
And even the way your eyes glisten when you are watching me
I could never get tired of staring at you either
Makes me feel like I know you better, understand you better
You make me so happy
You don't judge me
I think I might be
In love with you
-te

It's always scary finding out the truth
Especially when it's not what you want to hear
Making you want to just disappear.
Hearing something that hurts so bad
You have to pretend you aren't sad.
Something that you wouldn't believe
Makes that someone , something you peeve
Once you realize it could be true
Or even that you always knew
Just didn't want to admit
Because of how hard it is to quit
-te

Sometimes it's hard
To help out
Sometimes it's hard
To try and understand what you are going through
Sometimes it's hard
For me
With the thoughts and emotions taking over
Sometimes it's hard
For me
To give you advice when I **** at helping people
Sometimes it's really hard
To think you love me
Sometimes it's really hard
To expect anyone to love me for the way I am
It's very hard
-te

Do you ever think that maybe there is someone out there for you?
Someone you are going to spend your whole life with.
Someone who will love and cherish you with all their heart ,
And you may not even know It but they just know you are the person for them
You are their soulmate
And it may take awhile for you to realize that they are your
Soulmate too
It may take awhile for you to realize the little things they do like
Holding the door open for you
Buying you a hot chocolate with little marshmallows just the way you like It
Maybe even singing that song you love extra loud while you two dance and dance and dance
It could be the way they mock the way you talk just to make you laugh
Or even play with your hair until you fall asleep.
Takes time for someone to know how special those things are,
How much love is put into them
When you do figure these things out,
You have probably moved on to someone else..
Not knowing what you had right infront of you
-te