A hurricane of thoughts descends
what are we left with?
the road ahead, it twists and bends
try to throw it all on them
try and be a girl again

the layers you dwell on
the layers you deny
why do we even try?
climbing down the mountain you've claimed
such a pity. such a shame
a bad soul today
next thing you're saved

clean out that brain
go light it aflame
cause the truth its close to you
but your eyes are shut
there's answers within
but somehow you've forgot

go on then
throw it all away
show em how much
you can **** up in a day

dip those toes
in streams of unknown
wade through dreams
a peek of unseen
dust off the craze
walk into the maze
of secrets untold
a life will unfold
unforgotten it's luck
so **** it all up
then **** it back together
leave it for divine
fall back into time
spirits high, spirits low
binary divide
two lives intertwined
a master of none
what will become?
hold onto unknown
and find yourself a home
you are never, never alone

a crazy mother forgot
don't slap you in the face
shake your hand
rearrange the farce
remanded to that place
a foreign hole
godforsaken plains
fall from the plateau
and make yourself a home
scrape the dust
clean out your soul
and cry
let the water fall
rage steeped in love
drink from the cup
taste of days gone by
flavour of twisted lies
plant your seeds of hope
fix your gaze ahead
to the void of the unknown
hold your space
know your place
and do not forget
you are not
what you think you are

I found me standing all alone
face of stone
bone exposed
spirit cried to dream again
mind wired to die pretend

fickle eyes, fickle lies
i'll hit this one home
i'm not surprised
it's not mine
a soldier on their own

your demise
will shine this time
taught me to lie
taught me to whine
taught me to always
waste my time

you've crossed my line
i think it's a sign
you'll set me on fire
again, you're a liar
but to my surprise
i'll always rise

the tale is old
or so it seems
the life you've lived
the life you've grieved

when i was just a little girl
my mother was my whole **** world
she used to get me on one knee
she used to love to sing to me
“mother knows best
don't stray from the nest
it's you i adore
see you're not like the rest”

and from that tune
our souls enmeshed
and from that tune
a plague infests
the plague of the caged
I was trained to be strayed
i was layed in my grave

fickle smile, you ******* child
don't test me with your words
i've flown away
from chains of hate
i've grieved the days
a fresh clean slate

can never unsee
what you did to me
but it's true that i have learned
from a rotten egg
from a festered nest
i fly away a free bird

go on then, have a drink
remember how you used to think
remember how you used to ride
flying high in your fantasy
screaming, seemingly believing
'there's no way out for me'
in this sense you think you're free
on that road; an easy dream
see the path to hell feels like heaven
that's if you want to die at twenty-seven
to love yourself an impossible feat
cause why would you want to risk it all?
why would you want to stumble and fall?
you've gotta run, you've gotta hide
you are just trying to ******* survive
give you a break it's no big deal
you don't even know whats real
smoke the days away
drink the pain away
but when will you learn
the devils locked you in his cell
cause the road to heaven feels like hell