desensitized to life
only thing that i need
is a casket
sighing, crawling, hopeless
turn around like nothing happened
"everything's okay"
mental thinking
"yo, he's capping"
that light in me is fleeting
i grasp it
there's no feeling there
nostalgia creeping back
having childlike flashes
frequently approaching
those lessons learned
truly my favorite classes
depression can be expressed as
one of those mental rashes
always got me itching at it
never leaves my periphery
i'm tryna kick it out
tryna veer off to the light
yet it found its way back
without the need for sight
never faltering
on my way to greatness
momma told me i'm an all-star
i'm never gonna be traded away
from my faith
i know that's self-motivated
and i'm centered in my ways
so all i've gotta say is that
i'm here to stay
for as long as God portrays it
in the outline of my destiny
even if i'm down for the count
i'm still stumbling on my journey
never visibly hurting
yet
never personally worthy
yet
in due time
i'm fated to liken with
the consciousness that others see in me
they believe in my
search for mental freedom
shackles scorning
thoughts of liberation
i'm spiraling
it's tiring
yet we're still gonna fight
truly inspiring
i'll always seek the light in
us, the world,
i hope you'll join me
for this light is
always worth seeking
- negassie
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