I will resent you
for the rest of my days,
even if they somehow
find a way to
intertwine with yours again.
I hate you for saving me.
For showing me how
heroic I could be
if I put my mind to it.
For teaching me to
let people in
and making me see
all the love I have to give them.
I'll always hate you for that.
It makes me sick
that I was sick before
and now that I've
regained my health,
I've spread the spores
to everyone else &
now they are infected.
For the record
you did not reject me,
I quarantined myself,
you're so very welcome.
I will resent you
for the rest of my days
for promising me the world
then leaving me to cope alone
with loss and
the paradox of better words.
Wrote during a "break."