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Dawnstar Oct 2021
single digit self esteem
single digit self esteem
Amelia Aug 2021
a subtle brush-back of my hair, a glance there, a shy look-up and a soft smile as i read an intellectual book-
i adjust my blouse, absentmindedly stirring the iced coffee between my fingers decorated with polished acrylic nails-
as my eyes stray beyond the reading material-
they linger on the couple engaged in an embrace on the sidewalk with grinning faces.

my lips curled into a ghost of a frown, eyes dropping back down

my narration stops
my internal monologue begins
as i question for the hundredth time that day
what i was doing wrong
to not be in that place
it often feels 'wrong' to not be dating/to have not dated.
LONE STAR Jul 2021
You are not here
How do I live
How do I breathe
I feel lonely and it hurts
Just in here where they cannot see
Why did you go
Didn't you know I'd miss you so
I want to run into your arms
I want you to hold me through the night
But where are you
Will you ever come back to me
So many questions clouding my mind
Last night I walked under the rain
Thinking back to when you were there
Do you remember our first kiss was under the rain
Did you hear me scream your name
As I let my tears get washed away by the rain
Today our daughter asked about you
What was I to say to her
Should i tell her you are gone
I wish it was that easy
Would you please come back to me
D
death is such an unexpected occassion that takes our loved away leaving our souls yearning for their memories
I’ll bake your bread
but never eat

I’ll curb your taste
with extra cheese

I’ll sell your wares
through cheeky grin

I’ll charm your trade
while breaking down

I’ll take your calls
neath frowning cheer

I’ll print your life
without the clout

I’ll scrub your floors
and your *****

I’ll give you time
at mine’s expense
for M.S-C. & M.S-P.
--
the ones that teach you,
who lift you up over
their heads
in good faith,
these are their stories.
Astrea Jun 2021
Stranger to earth, to her body, to the church. I often wondered how she could remain stoic as her blood licked the grass blades at our feet, the moth falling with her finger, drowning with my grief into the ring of fire. How far can one go, she asked me, to live without participating in the circus, to resist clowns, to not register pain, family, injustice, rain. Look, I said, they endure, the sound, the visuals, the memory – episodic, yes, but they endure – people would not forgive bystander. The moth fell again, shuddering, struggling. And her finger, gushing with golden blood, was still pointing at the priestess, who smiled, and said, you decide, it’s your body. To sequester, draw a line on the snow, better with blood, but tears would suffice too – and so the stranger was repeatedly created and destroyed.
Tess M Jun 2021
why oh why am I
single
this house of horrors

this nightmare
filled with everything
that I long for

its a pain
to be forever

alone
I wrote this almost a year ago, alongside the first part, so just beware it wont be the greatest
Tess M Jun 2021
all around me are couples,
walk around,
frightened and clinging
to each other
clowns jumping out,
chain saws screeching on

paralyzed in fear
crying in extreme anger
everything in me
screams to have control
yet I keep

failing
Lynck May 2021
Lay my head where I please.

I lay it comfortably in the laps of the girls who were nice enough to have me.  

Lay it to rest faded at my friends house.

I Lay it sinking into my comforting pillow apriciating all the endless possibilities.

Lay it down where ever, what ever!

I lay my head in my hands and scream!
If
If
I
fall
in
love
with
you
day
by
day,
will
you
rise
me
up
every
single
part
when
I'm
falling?
Indonesia, 12th April 2021
Arif Aditya Abyan Nugroho
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