You shall not find solace
in the marble laws of Man.
Self-help programs
and sermons
will not dispel the emptiness.
***, drugs, madness, alcohol
will not prevail.
The constructs of religion
will only constrict your dreams.
God is a disinterested third party
waiting to be approached,
not caring if he is or isn't.
Submit to the vacuum
of your heart at four a.m.
Surrender to the void
that only love can fill.
Drink deeply; hold tight.
Dawn must come.
  - mce

Thrown off;
caught unaware.
My mind so full,
   I can't take in more.
Thinking,
Processing,
Trying to understand
   MYSELF
in the midst of
   new emotions and
   different sensations.
Who am I?
Why do I act this way?
What will I do next?
Unnerving:
   Realizing I don't
   know myself
   as I thought I did.
Unnerving:
   to see myself shaken,
   confused,
   surprised.
Seeking to integrate
   these newly-known
   parts of myself
   into the ME I know.