I detest when people ask: are you OK?
It gets even worse when it proceeds to: what's going on?
I avoid the answer to these questions, for their answer is neither clear nor joyful.
I wish they would never ask
I wish they would just stay quiet
They think they know what I have
They think they know what I need
I don't need their attention
I don't want their attention
I Just want to be in an empty room...
Where the only sound is the echo of my thoughts...
And I don't have to talk...
Or think...
Or move...
But they come back....
They pressure...
They stare....
They judge.....
I want them to leave.
I don't want them to wonder about me.
Leave
Leave me alone.
Stop torturing me.
Only then can I torture myself
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